the rain jus like my moood D: feeling supersupersuper moodyyy now . school was usual and i didnt came to notice tmr is good friday till jus now while talking to joyce. great finally i got a rest . dont knw why , i felt so lethargic . after school waited for misss joyce lim for quite awhile as she was talking to mrs lim about some YOG stuffs. after she came down , ate and went off to bishan for my phone to service . A total disappointment .. i couldnt take my phone to service anymore cos it had water inside and what worst , if i wants to repair it cost me a bomb like 65 for MINIMUM ?! still remember when i first got the phone i felt so elated and i swear to take care of it ...now ?! laughs , i shld have died cos i broken the swear and before ic trip my phone was alr spoiled but at that time joyce wanted to take her phone to service too yet we are kinda busy and so we decided to cancel it and wait for ic trip back then go. now ... i felt so regretted that i didnt take it to repair i shld have went alone , im always so lousy in making decision be it in studies , friendship , relationship all of these . im always so fickle minded and always i couldnt make up my decision when can i really change this habit of mine , it had taught me several lesson in relationship , friendship and studies , all i got the consequences for not being able to make up decision and landed in a state that i've nv wanted , overall i jus feel like saying CHAI PEI EN YOU SUCKS TO THE CORE , JUS A DUMB . .. jus now i went over to my house nearest shop to ask for the amount of money i got to pay for repairing my usb connecter of the phone they said $45 ... looking at my phone , whole lot of scratches and ytd it jus dropped to the floor and "danced" for awhile and now it left me speechless .. on th way home from bishan , looking at the windows drips of water slide from the top to the bottom , its jus like my tears rolls down from my eyes , i felt heartpain & gradually i feel so moodless . i hate myself , i hate to be landed in tday . i sucks & im lousy freak. i just want to cry it out loud & i need a pair of ear and shoulder please D: but there isnt ... & now i've reached home for quite long yet im still stuck at telling my mum about this matter. forget it i guess i just have to settle this on my own , i created it ..till here i guess im jus too low to continue )':
lastly , I SUCKS TO THE CORE
& I HATE MYSELF .
im always sucha let down. . .
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