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boohooooo ! im back one again , took bus 27 all th way to see the sinseh , waited for kinda long then checked my hand and thnks ar ? the first doc i see say 2weeks for recover , ok nvm . now this one 3weeks to 6weeks-.- i cant tahan already ! grr. then checked my back and previously my leg one long one short mar so he check again then the back was expected to be slanted abit lar cos i find that my back recently keep hurting then just keep at there let him" krak" my back and neck and leg lo. LOL. waited for mama to see the sinseh then ate , ok i did ate something at least today is like a spoonful of rice ? with some bitter gourd , fish and the sausage or what i dont know how say . my appetite is getting smaller and smaller lo. see so stress lo ! hahaha. joking(: then took taxi home im seriously very tired that i slept all the way till i reached my hse ,bathed and here im posting. oh ya i was saying today not a good day for me yea ? firstly , early the morning i woke up , on song through phone while tdying hair and prepare the first song already makes me in a emo mode alr but its a meaningful song:D . on th way to school put on earpiece the first song is gaoxiao already then is like so zzz cos the lyrics blablabla si diao blablabla de like soooooo ... low ! then nv assembly at courtyard , went in class i straight away put on my earpiece again & sleep , girlf come look at me like very shock haha. after that i can say all th while in class i've been thinking through lots of things , past memories gush to & forth in my brain like so messy can -.- keep on sleep and sleep like pig except for maths but dozed off for a few times yet was being waked up by mr nazied just because today mrs yoga came to our class to see how he teaches . ok lor give him face so i keep on scribble things on my foolscap to divert attentiona n not keep thinking of sleeping then blablabla la , after school gotten the class fotos we ordered i sian diao lar ! i shld have bought the collage one can , fuck-.- ANYONE WILLING TO SELL ME ?! zzz. obviously no . then wanted to do ic work in th end ... ict lab only opens on fri and the rest lab no inspiration software forget it wanted to go home alone , saw yhy , it seems like once the bell rang you can see till her already she like fly down like that hahaha. walked home with her and halfway i took bus 163 home and then thats all lo. argggggggh i hate emo-ing neither do i wants to but then i just dont know why i felt very low tgt with the rain and just now went tampiness mall there , bus 27 happens to drives through some places which makes me sooooo EMO-ISH ! nvm i guess tmr will be a better day i will be HIGH :D .

time is the best medicine for me now i think & is just the starting now yet im feeling so hard to breathe and i cant help myself from stop thinking those stuffs . i know i shouldnt but i've been living this way for 1yrs plus so tell me how am i going to adapt at this sudden change ? but this is the only way of paths which would marks the ending better ... im left with no choice so im also left with no choice with all this sufferings .. ):

alright im just back home and i gt to go out soon to see the sinseh for my idiot lil finger which has been swollen for 1week plus. anw today aint a good day for me , partly cos of the rain i think ? idiotic weather , think back last week's matter compared to this weeks' hahah , certain things changed like omg ? 360degree lols ! ok i will update again when i got home , hopefully i can have some appetite for my dinner ornot it would be the 5th day today haha. cya guys :)

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