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Wednesday, April 29, 2009

10:16 AM ;

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you're the best that i ever had

1:21 AM ;

booooohoooooo ! firstly , i gave school a miss today . i woke at 8am plus scolding my mum why didnt she wakes me up before forgetting i myself was the one soundly asleep and rejected of being awaken -.- so i went back to sleep happily till 11plus and started my ic , oh great im done with mindmaps leaving my report and reflection undone only , this feelings of satisfaction is great i swear. not only this , combining with a feeling of getting my vaio laptop , ohmy ! im like happy till the max and i shared this joy to some idiot who is abnormally stoning over the phone hahaah & surprisingly the idiot send back with a few "hahas" which is like so FINALLY PLEASE ! so yeah im leaving my house soon to choose the lappy i want with papa and mama , alright not pick cos im sure going to get my vaio red lappy I ONLY WANT THIS . hahaha sometimes i couldnt stand my stuborn character cos my father says ARSUS / Hp is better cos ARSUS is the new brand at korea or japan ah & hp ones lasts longer. err.. i dont know haha but whatever it is , who cares ?! i only love the exact one hehe ^^ . ohyeah im currently busy doing my english LA work too , haha how long since i last been so hardworking ? laughs ! okok i guess till here , im really least at the motivation of blogging , in fact im more into spying other's blog , esp those ones which makes me cant help myself being filled with overwhelming envy/envious !
hahaha ! but i love my way of life now ! :) cos i dont have to hang onto something which makes my heart so god damn heavy and thoughts in my mind daily . now , i've got a brain which is like occasionally "emo" mode and often in a HIGH SPIRIT mode ! so great isnt it :) . hahaha.

i loves to see those who held me up at my lowest point of life being happy ,
i loves to share joy with them , no doubt they are the best ever i had !
alternatively when they are low , i would try my best to makes them happy ,
like how they used to , but it seems like i dont have much of this ability ):
but the moment they are back to normal again i can be so high spirited !
so yeah , stop stoning get hyper all !

Labels: the great ones are hard to find but im glad i've gotten a few

you're the best that i ever had

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

11:27 AM ;

alright 2nd post for today again , time check its now 2.28am , & obviously im still not asleep yet , cos i just get to finish that wongqingqing's work and im still applying the cream on my hand , anw i think is about to rain once again ? hopefully cos is like so hot that theres a few kind souls out there stoning just now which makes me feel so failure can cos i cant make them high which previously i all along can . argh , i think one shld be happy to cheer another one up hor ? in th end i kana influence and so i only did that wsq's work and my whole piles of work , after 1whole day is still undone . grats to me , scoldings for tmr . argh but now i couldnt help but stoning and thinking about matters , whatever it is im going to sleep already cos im rather tired today and yes my back aches like shit now ! cfm rain one la tonight -.- zzz. till here dudes.

at my lowest point of time you're the one guiding me , holding me up ,
you aint one that will make a stand but one who speaks something that wakes me up ,
ppl says true friends are hard to find and i totally agree yet i felt so failure that i failed to make you felt entertained . i seriously dont know whats wrong . but i wont force you to say cos you aint one who will speak out , argh . all i can wish and says is , stay happy please joker ! HEEHEE:D

you're the best that i ever had

12:40 AM ;

out of randomness(:

updated //

boohooooo ! im back one again , took bus 27 all th way to see the sinseh , waited for kinda long then checked my hand and thnks ar ? the first doc i see say 2weeks for recover , ok nvm . now this one 3weeks to 6weeks-.- i cant tahan already ! grr. then checked my back and previously my leg one long one short mar so he check again then the back was expected to be slanted abit lar cos i find that my back recently keep hurting then just keep at there let him" krak" my back and neck and leg lo. LOL. waited for mama to see the sinseh then ate , ok i did ate something at least today is like a spoonful of rice ? with some bitter gourd , fish and the sausage or what i dont know how say . my appetite is getting smaller and smaller lo. see so stress lo ! hahaha. joking(: then took taxi home im seriously very tired that i slept all the way till i reached my hse ,bathed and here im posting. oh ya i was saying today not a good day for me yea ? firstly , early the morning i woke up , on song through phone while tdying hair and prepare the first song already makes me in a emo mode alr but its a meaningful song:D . on th way to school put on earpiece the first song is gaoxiao already then is like so zzz cos the lyrics blablabla si diao blablabla de like soooooo ... low ! then nv assembly at courtyard , went in class i straight away put on my earpiece again & sleep , girlf come look at me like very shock haha. after that i can say all th while in class i've been thinking through lots of things , past memories gush to & forth in my brain like so messy can -.- keep on sleep and sleep like pig except for maths but dozed off for a few times yet was being waked up by mr nazied just because today mrs yoga came to our class to see how he teaches . ok lor give him face so i keep on scribble things on my foolscap to divert attentiona n not keep thinking of sleeping then blablabla la , after school gotten the class fotos we ordered i sian diao lar ! i shld have bought the collage one can , fuck-.- ANYONE WILLING TO SELL ME ?! zzz. obviously no . then wanted to do ic work in th end ... ict lab only opens on fri and the rest lab no inspiration software forget it wanted to go home alone , saw yhy , it seems like once the bell rang you can see till her already she like fly down like that hahaha. walked home with her and halfway i took bus 163 home and then thats all lo. argggggggh i hate emo-ing neither do i wants to but then i just dont know why i felt very low tgt with the rain and just now went tampiness mall there , bus 27 happens to drives through some places which makes me sooooo EMO-ISH ! nvm i guess tmr will be a better day i will be HIGH :D .

time is the best medicine for me now i think & is just the starting now yet im feeling so hard to breathe and i cant help myself from stop thinking those stuffs . i know i shouldnt but i've been living this way for 1yrs plus so tell me how am i going to adapt at this sudden change ? but this is the only way of paths which would marks the ending better ... im left with no choice so im also left with no choice with all this sufferings .. ):

alright im just back home and i gt to go out soon to see the sinseh for my idiot lil finger which has been swollen for 1week plus. anw today aint a good day for me , partly cos of the rain i think ? idiotic weather , think back last week's matter compared to this weeks' hahah , certain things changed like omg ? 360degree lols ! ok i will update again when i got home , hopefully i can have some appetite for my dinner ornot it would be the 5th day today haha. cya guys :)

Labels: i try hard not to think, not to look and not to care but thats not easy.

you're the best that i ever had

Monday, April 27, 2009

7:17 AM ;

irritating i dont know why i couldnt upload photos and just today i got damn freaking lots of photos wanted to upload ! alright sorry to kailing cos she is like msn keep saying cant wait to see those fotos haha. anw happy birthday to that damn guailan priscilla who always suan me non-stop! -.- so yea school was SPECIAL for me today , a brand new day and i love it :) .

lesson was as usual finally i gotta know how to do gong han ! then maths was kinda fine , LA was slacking and i couldnt remember what lessons we've le hehe psps. then stayed back and yeaaaah swensens cake ! freaking funny can the thing frozen till cant be cut i just went to the chicken rice store grab a hand of fork than give them wah all chiong and eat like those nv eat cake before like that hahaha all thanks to me cos if for that tang to cut i think need 100years later , simply can forget about it regarding his lousy skill hohohos !

OHYES ! im damn freaking high in class today or you can say it as abnormal ? cos i keep singing this song by ella " qiangqiang ni yo ji de wo ~ " not only this i was frantically asking ppl if they have it and send me yet none had so nvm i change song to examples like " wo bu hui chang ge " " ji de " " hui gu niang" "everything " ... alot more i tell you . oh damn it tmr im facing a long list of bill cos school gots lots of glasses broken by me ok i shal skip school tmr then hahahahah ! joking lar of cos my voice so nice lor i sing ! HEHEH ^^ (IM OBVIOUSLY JOKING COS IM NOT THICK-SKIN-ED PLS HAHAAHAH ! ) then went back class for asp , didnt really catch much of what mr nazied says today cos i was day-dreaming and yes busy singing my " qiangqiang ~" & sms-ing away hahaha . went to find ryan wong at about 3plus , i swear d&t block is fcuking scary can-.-! couldnt get to find him so put the art piece on his table , i hesitated to get out of the school to get back for cl test , but i decided not to cos i thought can tmr but then halfway ms dai used gf phone to call me. oh bitch fuck off , fail jiu fail lor . im not one who cares much about this kinda shit yeah every knows hahaha.

headed to kfc next to find that yhy , thought she at the florist shop in th end at kfc-.- idiot. didnt even bothered to sit down just saw them and walked off anw i dont intend to eat too haha. so went to skcc , played and then saw priscilla god we bought a sunflower for her cost 12bucks she can say not nice ! idiot hhaha . then played bball and not awhile tomansi came tgt with peiqi and thnks kohpeiqi for bringing me a " buffalo " /" pig " / "hippo" pattern shirt hahaah whatever it is thnks anw cos im like zhao geng whenever i jump though i wear fbt lar . but whats worst was when i wanted to take the ball from the window top that time th wind blow and my skirt went " boom" hahaha nvm luckily im fast enough to cover it down anw also nothing -.- hahaha.

played all the way till 7plus going 8plus im damn tired can zzz. hahaha. went home with spicy snack wrap for dinner . ytd was kfc snackers , the 2days before was nv eat haha ! i myself dont know why too just dont have the appetite for the actual meal , like today my recess time i ate the porridge and drinks only then after school nothing much bt the cake . HAHAH im on diet ! LOL of cos not lar cos i find that eating is happy but dont knw why just dont have appetite haha. reached home and watch pingpangyuan i seriously think he sheng wu should win please . know why ? He JiaJun is too far arrogant and i hate arrogant ppl & i hate ppl with no initiative , totally sucks. alright this second point has totally no link with this shows lar haha i just happen to make it a remarks ^^
.whats worst his name is He JiaJun hahaahahah ! winks* i think some knows what i mean by that. anw , thats all i think for today just keep laughing non-stop due to the presence of kohpeiqi and tomansi except for awhile of sian mode hahaha .till here :)

dear readers , if a fairy god mama wants to grant you a wish what you wants ? ( asked by the random yhy ) :
for me , i would one to find someone reliable and i would love to be with and stable down everything and that someone can show care, concerns, sweetness to me & muchmuch more as one who fit to be a lover in my heart . ( hahaha yhy happen to ask me one que cos she was shocked by my wish i myself too cos ... hehe not going to say it out ! =p )

alright till here i guess , IM SERIOUSLY A LUCKY BITCCCH :D:D:D
& beware im someone who SPY hahaha ! you obviously fit to be that one except for one criteria hahaha ! ok im just joking obviously cos i've got no one in my heart now !
oh yes there is , someone who called BASKETBALL HAHAHAHAHA :D

Labels: im not gna fall back anymore ever since i 've think hard and made up my mind for that decision, staying strong still .

you're the best that i ever had

Sunday, April 26, 2009

9:51 AM ;

alright 2nd post for today , anw didnt went to watch home-u match cos some stupid one hurt her ankle ytd while banging onto her teamates and lost balance-.- dumb hor ! so cos of her we decided not to go le see you're influencing lor . idiot. so she is not playing then our main purpose is to see her play and so we give it a miss and they won haha ! i think nxt time dont go better hahaha. ok so yea then that yhy good lor i go then tell her dont want go le she go home left me with tomansi they all so chatted abitbit and tomansi and her brother headed home left me and sq and priscilla so went play awhile jiu go home le . saw samantha hahaha board bus tgt and went rp get my snackers from kfc hhaha and yes my dinner is just 4 winglets then abit of fries cos the fries seriously sucks when it is soggy ! HAHA so thats my dinner , i find that the more stress im the more i cant eat sia. unlike my poor sandra gf , she more stress keep eating haha bt nvm eating is good ok gf dont be too stress and relax ! :D n yea went to watch tv , hong xin da jiang, i seriously think bai wei xiu is damn pretty lar haha ! so yeah , here im posting while chatting away in msn . ohyes i haven finish ms dai work so yea forget it lar i give up hahaha tmr staying back school do :) and i haven turn into " schooling" mode again so fast my weekeneds is gone once again ! gosh , assignments n test pls get lost ! GRRR.

FOR GOODNESS SAKE ! MOTHER EARTH :
i beg you dont so fast extinct can ?! 2010 ?! CANNOT LAR ! i haven even build up my standard for bball and i haven played a tornament and i still not settled down and find someone reliable for me to lean on AND YES I GOT ALOT WISH UN-DONE ! PLEASE DONT EXTINCT SO FAST ): !

you're the best that i ever had

1:34 AM ;

booooooooohooooooo ! flooding homwork , assignments , test and more ! alright i slept at 3am plus ytd night and woke at 2pm today , get my cupnoodles i bought ytd which i didnt ate as my breakfast , alright it sounds wrong ar ? 2pm breakfast ? haha so yea shld be lucnh lols ! argh , im sorry wong shuqing ! i cant get your mindmap finish on time ! dont know for what freaking reasons my 1mindmaps and shuqing's went missing and i cant open my inspiration , they keep on say "bitmap not valid " huh ? bitmap not connection one meh? argggh i dont know whats wrong with my comp , i've been thinking from just now till now , will i be so " asking too much " if i ask for a laptop from mum now ? cos i jus gotten new phone , alright i really dont know , but im glad i still can enter blogs and msn all these yeah is still usable i mean 1/4 usable ? i dont know ): how i wish i could have vaio laptop ! the new one omg is damn nice but i know i shldnt be asking too much . so im staying back tmr for my ic though theres no training -.- and my cl test is so dead cos i frget to bring my chinese shou ce home and no need study already lor. then my workbook also dont need do already , oh fish . not only this im so stuck with my cl compo i knw i shld get it done cos i've been owe-ing that Ms Dai for mths but i just cant get my brain started and tune it to the compo " chinese gong han " mode . and yes im getting busier and busier somehow i like it cos it kept me occupied and prevents me from day-dreaming and yes is also making felt tired cos im one who are totally noob at handling stress and time management , it seems like i've nothing im good at excepts for eating and sleeping , attitude-ing , wasting time , slacking and something i just get back to few days back but im going to stop it too. i dont want let my effort down drain cos stamina is hard to get back . and yes i think i gtg to get my chinese done and im meeting yhy and the rest to head to sbc for the home-u youth match . & ytd night i've gotten a damn funny dream haha. is already over but i dont knw why i still got this dream , nvm cos im happy :) . hahah. alright till here and i miss someone alot ! ^^

Labels: you are not sorry.

you're the best that i ever had

Saturday, April 25, 2009

11:24 AM ;

booooooooohooooo ! alright is kinda late at night now and im just done with my blogskin hahah! idiotic me , i've been finding hard for plain and nice one , though i dont really like black blogskin cos i find it so ... dull ? but well nvm give this a try cos this blogskin font and design is quite nice anw. haha. ohyea i couldnt put anysongs in yet theres a problem with it so i gotta wait for vivian
to give me a help tmr when she's online :) oh fuck weekeneds are ending all i wants and could think of is just bballing non-stop though my finger is still swollen and hurting but well cant help it cos basketball is my passion and i will never wants to quit it anymore , lemme thinks what i've left , 1article and 2mindmaps for ic , 1mindmaps for that wongqingqing , cl compo ( nearing 1mth of oweing-.-) , art . not really alot i can say if i willing to do i think i can finish within a day but sorry im too lazy to start . if i let someone see these i will be naggged at again luckily she dont know my blog link hahahahaha ! okok i will try to change my working attitude , no is a must LOL. i myself knows it clearer than anyone else actually haha. and yeah went for sl , finally it marks the end of this whole piece of shit :x but i learnt lots from it too :) . went study , alright just not yet switch to exam mode so im stuck with slacking and sms-ing away and i decided to head home for a rest cos i slept late and woke up early today . went home not awhile came out again to meet hy and the rest to watch match , alright is like almost every weekeneds i will head to sbc-.- including tmr to watch the actual group that i like haha home-u YOUTH \m/.
hehe^^ but fyi today we went to watch home-u big team not home-u youth , wah like what hy say that they cfm will scored 100 plus in fact they did-.- then when they ended we played match , laughs all of us sweat like hell , during normal games or tournament we dont sweat as much as today lol ! then yes my blister is coming out , painnnnn D: . headed home with justin , weichong , hy , shuqing , joy , bernice thru bus 80 and went 7-eleven to buy cupnoodles for dinner but till now i haven ate yet . is been two days that i skipped my dinner and i dont kno why i just dont have the appetite today neither dinner or lunch whats worst i woke up in a rush and i hadnt had my breakfast so tell me , what did i really ate today ? roughly just a small plate of beehoon and those desserts for the buffet of sl . hahaha , im superhuman that i dont have to eat . oh i remember i said this to someone before haha. pimples are popping out ! 3 on my foreheaddd , god damn it , i want to shed it offfffff i hate pimples , i dont have any pimples till this year wtf -.-
alright thats all for today , sayonarraaaa ~

its confirmed to be hard in the starting but w.o this hardship ,
there will never be gain and now i can only be envy and never will i be like those bliss ones.
but i knows that love couldnt be forced too , the right ones will comes :)

Labels: family . friends . basketball is what i love now.

you're the best that i ever had

Friday, April 24, 2009

10:28 AM ;

alright time check is now 1.29am :) im still thinking about certain stuffs but im not crying this time round as i promised. anw the above video is taken from youtube it may load quite slow and plays for quite long but as long as you on and pause it awhile it will load kinda fast alr then yeah is kinda long video but its nice and this songs is wonderful . i hope i've made the right choice and hopefully happiness would always with you and i can be happy too . if is yours means it will be yours if is not , then just end it after this whole day i learnt about this and i made up a decision for something that i've been holding on for veryveryvery long which is no point and yup im now moving on :) alright shall talk about some school stuffs , thnks lot ryan wong allows me to hand in my pencil holder on monday and im stuck with my ic again im like so lazy to do haha. times flies and once again shoo~ school ended , homed and after that went skcc but not much ppl and kinda boring then left for compass. roughly is like that le. nothing much. ohyea, i hate people who looks down on lesbian or despise them . well they just simply have no rights to take one example of what x said today totally pissed me off. for goodness sake lesbians are humans too for your information they dont need your criticism or discriminations they have feelings and prides too so just jolly well " SHHHH" :) .

we've ended , been holding this for veryveryvery long ,though you have left me with tears and sadness but i still remember those happiness we once have. as i've said thnks for everything , you coloured my life , there will never be a second one you're the first and also the last one but to my regret we will never be . but its okay at least theres memories left and a happily ending. for you , i will hold back my tears and i will work hard . i know you've been trying to give me care and concern , thnks for your giving in and i've got lots to say but blog aint save so yup , though the ending werent what i really wanted but im elated at least we have got things said out , we somehow like the past for that lil tiny bit of while and yes i will miss you definitely lots but i will still move on happily just for you and i hope you will be happy like how i first saw you , your smile and laughters is the most wonderful thing ever in my life . you coloured my life and brighten it up with giving me a imperfectly beautiful past and memories. Lastly , the song is specially dedicated to you , loves :] .

Labels: theres no 2nd., you're the first and the last

you're the best that i ever had

Thursday, April 23, 2009

4:14 AM ;

Grats girls for winning the championship of North Zone :) jiayous !

Nationals alright ,kangbai jiayou ! :)

school was usual , and another day that i didnt sleep lol. had homecon test kinda easy followed by history test and wthell i can finish it and i knows how to do yet not enough time-.- headed off right after history and went to watch the girls match alright the referee just abit unfair but nvm they won by their skills :) . such and such ... presentation and prize giving & yeah thats all then we headed back to school and i walked home alone . Sometimes its great to be alone too .

i dont know why i've this thought of quiting and giving up basketball , when its the time that i can train i injured my hand , its been 1week already , maybe i just dont suit basketball. i think i need some days to think it all over...

i dont know why we will come till this day , this stage ,
those happiness that once ever had happen seems to be covered up by disappointment and sadness one by one .. i felt tired and i no longer knows how to get this go on.
somehow it tells me that no matter what im just like a fool and the answer remains ,
at the very last of all what i gotten in return will be just one word "fool" and nothing .
when the time i need you the most , where are you ? none other else but just you could makes me felt settle down and yet you wasnt there... all along i seems to be dreaming ,
dreaming that things would be back like the past but yet ... im just being a damn idiotic fool.
foolishly holding onto something that could NEVER be back ... i felt tired , real tired ...

Labels: It wasnt a day that i thought it would be.

you're the best that i ever had

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

9:40 AM ;

alright is kinda late posting and is pouring like nobody buissiness now , finally i know why my backaches so much ! see is more accurate than anything else including the weather forecasting cos since morning my backaches had already started hahaah! and yea back to school today , my throat is still kinda painful . lessons was very energetic dont knw why i felt very motivate out of a sudden ? haha. times flies and shoooo~ is around 1.30pm bell rings ! haha. stayed in school for lunch but out of a sudden i just lost my appetite , wanted to go void-deck with girlf , but saw xinyee and caiyun so went 260:) oh how long was it when i last slacked with them? haha. awhile later went meet huiyee and headed to skcc , YEAH THANKYOU TOMANSI FOR MY HERSHEY ! FINALLY LEHH:D:D:D ! HAHA. and im stuck with my maths from afternoon 2plus till all the way at night ! laughs ! great thanks to TOMANSI ! for teaching me , cant believe a tomato could be so pro in maths . haha. oh yea i gave training a miss , since im not doing anything why not just either spend time on my maths or ic all this stuffs ? yup i've decided that i will only go training when i cleared my works and my academic is stable :) so yeah , im very stuck with Expansion and Factorisation of Algebraic Expressions , thnk god today i got some tomato so teach me that i understand better cos is like almost all im clue-less omg-.- i cant let this continue thus im determined to get a A2 for maths . Ohyeah finals tmr ! girls gogogogo jiayous okay :) you guys cant get it , sorry i cant do much but well love you all :) ! alright i just finish with my maths is actually supposed to hand up on monday but im suddenly very into it haha. and my ic left 1more article ! YEAHYEAH :D ! im happy im like clearing my work already ! tmr i shall clear my art ! alright i really have to learn time-managment haha ! okay i got to get rid of my tmr-then-tmr-do habit ! HAHAHAH . okay till here all byes :)

im satisfied with now , thanks and i've think it through ,
no matter how the ans would be , i will move on ,
i guess im already tired too so yeah we shall see how it goes ,
is fated :)

Labels: MATHS A2 'Time to wake up and Focus on Academic .

you're the best that i ever had

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

3:21 AM ;

alright i gave school a miss and slept till 12pm plus , ate and headed to doctor . oh i've yet to say why i didnt attend school . ytd around midnight my gastric was hurting me like hell , vomited 2times-.- then went back to sleep and felt better already so yea . then when morning woke up , my i dont know how to say is the stomach there but the top part there still very pain anw i got some sore-throat and giddy so mum tell me not to go school . eat porridge and went back to sleep till 12pm plus headed to the doctor and the doctor says my throat is have infections and swollen then not enough sleep so actually wanted to give me 3days of mc but i dont want . haahah. so this everything costs me $42 . what a month of april , just this month i guess i spend more than 2000 zzz-.- somemore i went for a haircut , super short hair im having now is at NECK LENGTH :) hahaha i like it cos is more convenience la dont need tie butbutbut , if i dont tie go school i guess i will got alot of negative comments like " act cute ah ~!" something like that lar so i decidded to tie and go school :) then back home and here im posting ! alright not much things to post cos im busy chatting away haah , bye ppl !

Is going on and how long could this goes on to ?
how great would it be if i've got a definite ans for this
and how great would it be if i've now got a definite decision from my heart.
but im just stuck with you ...

Labels: i love my short hair :)

you're the best that i ever had

Monday, April 20, 2009

2:11 AM ;

Alright im home early today and time check now is 5.12pm evening , is kinda sunny but well i gave training a miss due to asp and homework tgt with my hand injured anw im not playing so yeah go there for ? lols. well today school was very slack cos we left class at 10.30am due to the semi-final match so yea only attend one lesson , hey girls you guys done well alright and yeah grats for winning once again against yishun town and vivian my dear you rocks :) you looks damn suai today lar ! haha. and yeah went back to school ate and then i rush for asp already wellwell , i hope to have more asp ! cos i want my maths to improveee puhpleaaaaaase ! and i think due to studies , maybe i will not attending those match they have against NATIONALS already anw go also do nothing hahah should really focus more for mid-years ! i want at least a B4 for maths please no B3 ): ! after asp went 260 to buy my CHOCO-MILO , no changes is standard :)! Then halfway saw wenjie and his friends which is damn irritating when they say about soemthing ! then headed to compass get mum some food and bused home with jasmine sim tgt , had a chat then alighted and home sweet home , aww is been long since i felt so great and enjoyful at home , lack of house warming ? hahahah laughs ! im here now eating and i find something kinda funny . april fool is a day where we likes to fools ppl and yeah theres this jokes i had with my vivian chua they all on something & now this something comes to somethig like ...gonna be real or i should say is becoming more serious and more ppl knowing it ? it starts with a joke yet now it become something use to disturb me withhhh grr. haah. i just find it kinda funny alright i dont know how to say cos i myself dont even know what im thinking . maybe i need to have a clear thought first ? LOL. is very unbelievable but well it will never happens too:)
i dont really expect anything on it cos anw i do have something which mean more than anything else in my heart right now so yeah , shall just focus on my studies and thats all oh please i want no more troubles haha ! Alright , im off to sleep , i just cant focus to do my ic so yea call me a P-I-G cos i love to sleep and eat with all my mights and all i can ! haahahahah ! FATTY BOMBOM IS ME :) . okay good-evening dudes im off to sleep yup ! :] .

Labels: What a joke of the month of april ^^

you're the best that i ever had

Sunday, April 19, 2009

2:45 AM ;

Reply of tags :

tkxD : yeah you're good my dear hahaha ! daily tagged me :) . HAHA sheryl that fool of APRIL !

Sandra : School got friends to accompany me what so hyper ma. At home alone confirm will think through certain things , its unavoidable :) but i will try to cheer alrights .

TkxD : yeahyeah haha thnks for you tags . nope no more rainbow already !

WENJUN : yup i miss you ! Your head la clear schedule now end of april soon liao also nver meeet me ! forget it lar ! ass , disappointment ): !

Sheryl : dear sheryl , im okay lar ! HAHAHA , deardear , like write the letter like that , dear sheryl , I LOVE YOU haahah !

kuanyi : wah how long never tag me le ! ): hahah. what ah en , you ah yi ! LOLL. dont call me ah en laaar so nan-ting hahah , missesss!

tkxD : haha , is not healthy now wheres my daily taggy ! :x human's nature is greedy :D

Vivian : LOL , you put lar you want see !

Pearlyn : alright , im really lazzzzy tooo lar ! haha. okok asap !

Tk xD : of cos la my choice horhor ! :x hahahah.

Vivian : yes ! call me 12 ! 12 rocks haha im going to take 12 for the nxt 2years too though is kinda boring but i want collect as many 12 as i can with my ability ! woos ! :)

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click on OLDER MESSAGE to view these tags , thanks :)
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you're the best that i ever had

12:18 AM ;

im damnnnnnn bored right now at home . just finished my lunch . alright im stuck in hommmme and when i just woke up is kinda raining and now ? look how bright the sun is ! what a weather !
and when im alone at home something came across my mind which makes me feel so... moody i can say . friends ? oh you call that friends , what the true meaning of friends ? i guess i need someone to teach me about it . alright i guess .. just forget about it cos im too tired . afterall , it my problem i think no is all along my problem which i never get it . okay i dont really know how to describe it out now through words partly is because my english standard isnt high :) But im glad ,i've got some true ones who all along with me , either its schoolmates or friends outside :] .
you guys makes me feeel fortunate to have such friends , rock on ! Well after all , friends comes and goes true ones will always be the one staying on with you . Is just a matter of time . thats all i guess , hmm im not describing anyone okay haaha i just happen to came across this and comparing my past n now . SEE ! im sentimental ! HAHAHAAH . alright mum is coming back soon with my contact lenses and im still feeling bored right here , IS TIME TO WORK ! off to sleep hahaha ! cos im one who is super lazy bummmm & yes i say NO to homework though theres is 2 compo i mustmustmust finish by today , well just get off from meeeee ! irritating !
okok i want my sleep now bye dudes will update later , maybe ?

dont hold me on too long cos i dont know how long this patience can last me with ,
when theres starting there always ending , when you're meant not to be mine
there must be someone out there for me , i guess ?
just when this one will appear or just when you will be back ?
is always no definite ans.

Labels: Just a shoulder and one who cares please.

you're the best that i ever had

Saturday, April 18, 2009

8:48 AM ;

alright im late for YOG today -.- thankgod i woke at 8am and spend half-an-hour to spam call vivian chua and 12 CALLS. reached , play all this . Oh is been lonnnnng since i talk to some assholes and yeah finally today had a catch up :) haha. im kinda lazy to type la YOG sucks and nobody come and IS FINALLY FCUKING OVER :D:D:D ! then headed to compass eat all this , saw jizong that ass and after that loiter around compass alone then headed home , im damnnnnn tired that i didnt even bother to change i jus lie on my bed and sleep then quite awhile i found myself sticky so went wash face and changed on fan and sleeeeeep till 5plus when im meeting huiyee they all at 6 !! so faster rush this and that went kfc meet huiyee , priscilla , mansi and freda. ate and headed to sbc , watched the match of QIAN XI vs KEMBANGGAN and HOMEUNITED vs KAI XUAN . arggggggh they homeunited should winnn one ! ): nvm is over haha. then headed to cp alone , walking aimlessly , went 7-eleven and walked home alone and here im posting thats it im very tired bye dudes . & I WANT CHANGE PHONE -.- okay ignore my rubbish . im just soooo _)(*&^^%$#@!~ though i know it stupid .

those days when we used to hang along is what now we could never be.
i dont know whats on my mind lately , im too tired to bother about anything anymore.
im really tired and how i wish i can escape this bloody earth and bloody world.
hanging on to things which can never be back , i wonder why am i so stupid .
in my heart i dont have other choice , all left my speechless.
once again is just all along one-sided and im never your everything while you're to me.

Labels: irreplaceable.

you're the best that i ever had

Friday, April 17, 2009

9:53 AM ;

ITS FRIDAY BABYYYYYY ! alright this week is a veryvery meess up week first i owe alot of ppl things , esp TEACHERS oh freak-.- 2 compos of Ms Dai , IC indi & group , Environment rep work , Geog , Maths AND 1MTH PLUS GOING 2MTH OF ENGLISH JOURNAL . okay eng i give up man -.- chinese im going to complete it and ic i shall complete by nxt week and for my committee stuff im going to finish tonight :) . And finally YOG comes to an end real soon , it sucks no doubt imagine you're one of the members yet you are always not really notified by the exact meeting and time ? alright for the previously i didnt attend is due to reasons obviously-.- then tell me does that me i can be left out ? laughs when it comes to last min you guys spams me with msg telling me bring this and that , print this and that still kana your criticism ?! but you shld have thought of notified me like hey remember when and when need pass up and when and when got rehearsal right ?! oh forget it just call me a uncapable and irresponsible leader i shall just accept it anw. cos I DONT OWE YOU A LIVING _l_ i would rather help out in my bball booth please class is so not my passion and im just so enough of those nick names , CROW ?! fuck off la what rights you've got man ? if you can call me crow thats makes no difference which shows i can call you duck right ? alright i shall do so soon , theres always a limit of playing you can call me petty is okay cos i dont really give a damn to you at all who are you to be bothered about ?! just a small lil ass or hair ! laughs-.- you think you're a man is a big fuck ? then let me tell you , so what if im a girl ? i must be afraid of you ? HAHAHAHA , oh please that so not me , consequences is NOTHING to me cos my family dont gives a damn too so yea we shall see lah hor. dont treat me as nth when i dont shout or scold when the limit is reach and it burst then thats what chinese mean by " dog and chicken jump the wall " dog and chicken shldnt be able to jump a wall but when the are forced to a limit they will so yea get it ? i think so. so nth much for today im tired ): and i dont owe you a living if you treat me that way then thats it dont blame me for treating you that way , is not as though i cant live w.o you lah please so sick of this for YEARS & joyce lim you meant alot to me okay no doubt ! sorry alright :] ! .

Labels: if you dont deserve it nv even wants for it.

you're the best that i ever had

Thursday, April 16, 2009

6:54 AM ;

this

turns to

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.
.
.
.
this

(close up)

and

what a cool lil finger i have now laughs. alright i guess my hand now is more alien than yeo huiyee's one haahahah. didnt attend school today cos is kinda hurts and ya so forget abt school cant even tak pen to write go school for ?! right ? haha so i am hibernating all this while and didnt even bother to on my comp as i've my phone to accompany me and jus eat , sms , sleep and continuously for the whole day haha. till now 9pm going 10 and im most likely not attending school again tmr :) alright see how first haha . okay i jus changed my mind , im attending school tmr due to YOG things i dont want some idiot to kpkb again . so yeah , went to the doctor ytd and they say it may takes a week to recover or a few days depends & wtf i cant play ball for 1week ! whatever im still gona play with my right hand maybe is a sign telling me to train my other hand cos im one who is left hander and dont use right hand hahahaha unlike that vivian chua left hander like right hander and right hand better than left hand , pro ah ! haha. then got some painkiller and reduce the swallon-ess of the hand and luckily i reject injection ! cos the doctor tells me to have it which i was like " arggggggh no way ! " hahhaa . so yea nth much to post alr ? lol. bye all ! will post soon.

how would it feel when you're down and the one you love is not there for you ?and seems not to be bothered ? and thanks for that only one who is there for me & yes the others but just a few and im not pin-pointing anyone
but just thanking those who were there for me:)

Labels: cool lil finger :)

you're the best that i ever had

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

5:53 AM ;

injured my lil finger . is very pain even now typing im using the first 4 finger of my left hand, is my hand , my feeling you guys just dont understand this pain and for the first time my fingers is hit by bball till this extend that then i make the finger slanted to a side i can feel the bones half top bone of the lil finger is slanted to the other side ..

this point of time , i've the urge to ring you up

& cry on you , speak to you , do you knows how much i need you ?

just your voice could already makes me feel settled ,

but when i wanted to press your number , something stopped me ,

theres a voice sayings out and telling me its no longer the past ,

the past is over..O-V-E-R .

fear...what to do ? im very scared ..

im lost ... all i need is you but where are you ?

i should have known ealier ..

despite all my tryings... its just useless.

who can i find ? who?

now i know whats friendship ... im all alone .

Labels: whats so sentimental is already over all it left is just tears and fears .

you're the best that i ever had

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

8:38 AM ;

(best : clement's and zhenhong's )

( me and kailin's , nice horhor ! xD)

(retard marcus lim's & marc's )

dont be fooled by their garnish , the noodles taste AWFULLY SWEET x)

this is better cos is done by marc while the other by marcus the retard xD

(vivian's and sheries )

well had our practical test and begining when taking those ingredients im nervous like shit and i got minus mark due to my intake of salt jus cos i forget take spoon and took too much salt as i pour it into the plate-.- zzz. nvm ! anw overall i find it last yr im more stable , maybe this time my preparations not enough ba cos i the night before then remember and its kinda too late to prepare and buy those garnish , sorry kailin ! hope i can score A1 for it as i really hope to , i want maintain last year's standard . Cooking is something i loves alot and how great would it be to be a chef ? cooking dishes for others , seeing them eating it with praises and esp cooking for someone you love ! hahaha , i wants to go shatecccc ! but im worry that i might not be pro enough to be a chef ): ! we shall see hows the future goes haah ! alright back to topic , and yeah our marks is kinda okok la i see already haha. then recess ,CL is shit la i hate the ms dai man , compocompocompo everytime also do compo from 1page plus till 2page half , fuck and now i still left with her compo ! see im so good , flooded with homework still come post hahaha ! alright followed by maths lesson was fine but i still slept for awhile , jus cant stay focus , dontknwwhyyyy ): then langarts , was happily using the phone since mr lai dont give a damn and yeah , lesson end and everyone chiong out of class cos ms dai say she 1.30pm will come find us to finish compo , stayed in toilet quite awhile and then when we ask them " ms dai go already ?" they say " she say bring home do " _l_ asshole teacher . went home , slept all this stuff and called the person to make my contact lense , thought need go down but the person says with the information of my degree can already , so jus stayeddd at home and sleep all i want lo. around 6plus woke up , watch tv and help out mum in kitchen , alright mum promise to let me cook whatever i wants during weekeneds :)))))))) ! then ate and around 8plus went downstairs to get joyce sweetheart's book review , headed to NTUC with her , shop around and buy things that mummy needs. off after awhile and here im posting while doing sweetheart's homework and my 2compo & maths homework awaiting me , gtg all ! bye !

Those few phrases , not more and not lessis that all we could have ? i shld have knwn earlier ,
despite my tryings is still just one-sided. .

Labels: Im feeling tired and lonely, im missing you all over againn .

you're the best that i ever had

Monday, April 13, 2009

4:30 AM ;

actually intended to post ytd night as i promised , but sorry was making my new phone's settings till kinda late and so i decided to post today . so yeah i got a new phone KU990R :) happyhappy !
and i didnt really realised till today i actually got the same phone as babbbbyyyy ! aww :] hahah! couplecouple x) . okay nth much ytd , went over to auntie's house and shop around taopayoh , bought some shorts and get my phone then dinner with my aunties . Suddenly my father's side auntie called up my mum and told her to fetch my ahma , so ate finished and my cousin drove us till potong pasir mrt and mum and me went separate ways as she went to chinatown while i came home :). Slept kinda late and woke up at around 7plus today . School was usual and my geog st was like piece of shit cos i didnt studied at all -.- if i passed it would be MIRACLES. followed by CL showing videos and maths then off to meet the rest for going match , hahahahaha ! happyhappy , the match referee is my idol ! woohoos ! okay abit crazy i know-.- abnormal me haha. then of cos the girls win right cos they got good referee xDD ! deyi is some kind of chicken feet to them anyway and you girls done great alrights lovesloves !:] haha. back to school im so fucking hungry and my gastric acts up again luckily i ate a plate of chicken rice which i felt sooooo tasty jus like a food from heaven haha ! then had light training , i didnt do much anw , oh im so used to it alr , yeah no more rants from me anymore :) . watch the christ-church videos and off i went with joyce :) . actually wanted to go cc to meet the sotong as she was saying my idol is there LOL. haha , but im kinda tired cos slept at 4am ytd ! now im home happily eating and sms-ing away , gotta start my homework soon ! :D till here , dudes !

The only love that i ever wanted so much and meant so much ,
it will not stop till the very end , loving you whole-heartedly.

Labels: Nothing's gonna stop me, you're my only love

you're the best that i ever had

Friday, April 10, 2009

8:36 AM ;

it wasnt what i wanted .
i kept myself occupied in the kitchen to cook my dinner ,
however this time round my egg is burnt till the 2nd time then i succeed.
fried egg with onion and fried beehoon shld be nice enough for me to eat ..
but i jus couldnt eat it .. i felt so moodless ..
i was now thinking abt if one day i went back to malaysia ,
disappear from s'pore will anyone miss me ?
bother about me ?
miss my noisy voice ?
my attitudes ?
my rants ?
i hadnt been a great friend , im sorry my friends .
neither had i been a good lover , im always contracdicting ,
im always fickle minded ..
and now im real tired can anyone jus tell me how to go on ?
im stuck . im not good in everything ,
studies too. why is this all happening ?
all this came across to me when i was alone at home
and alll these came popping out,
someone said , " you had alot of friends but is your attitude that drives them away "
tell me how can i change ? im tired.
i want be a good friend ,
good lover , good student
but aint ppl saying , live with imperfections ?
is jus so messed up , i dont want all those to happens ,
isit a curse that we are meant not to talk till 1week ?
in 1week we can only talk a few days of happiness and ended up with disagreement ,
is like a continuos happening .. why is this so ?
i think is time for me to accept the fact that we will never be ,
never..N-E-V-E-R .
it doesnt have to wait long now i felt that we no longer can be back to past ...
i dont know im in mess i jus wants to cry all out , im hungry but i couldnt eat anything down.
im tired but i cant get to sleep ...
i want everything thats lost to be back , why will i lost those ?
is so important to me ..
im jus typing on out how i felt , i feel so tired .
am i thinking too much ? but all these jus pop into my head naturally ..
why am i always crying , where is the me that used to laughs alot ?
i dont know .. i myself dont even knw whoelse knows ?
i couldnt be that strong girl that i was once , that you guys thought to be ..
all i know is to cry and cry and cry ..
im dumb , im foolish , im jus a idiot
IN
EVERYTHING.
& yes life still got to go on ...whatsmore i can do ?
theres one question i would like to ask all my friend ,
WHAT AM I TO YOU GUYS ? GREAT OR SUCKERS ?
i need some feedbacks to know whats wrong , whats wrong with myself , my character .
im slow , im dumb , im idiot , im always being commented , im attitude ,
such and such ... say it out now to me pls , i need a change .
i dont wants to lead my life on aimlessly ):

Labels: but im not the only for you., you're the only one for me

you're the best that i ever had

Thursday, April 9, 2009

2:44 AM ;

the rain jus like my moood D: feeling supersupersuper moodyyy now . school was usual and i didnt came to notice tmr is good friday till jus now while talking to joyce. great finally i got a rest . dont knw why , i felt so lethargic . after school waited for misss joyce lim for quite awhile as she was talking to mrs lim about some YOG stuffs. after she came down , ate and went off to bishan for my phone to service . A total disappointment .. i couldnt take my phone to service anymore cos it had water inside and what worst , if i wants to repair it cost me a bomb like 65 for MINIMUM ?! still remember when i first got the phone i felt so elated and i swear to take care of it ...now ?! laughs , i shld have died cos i broken the swear and before ic trip my phone was alr spoiled but at that time joyce wanted to take her phone to service too yet we are kinda busy and so we decided to cancel it and wait for ic trip back then go. now ... i felt so regretted that i didnt take it to repair i shld have went alone , im always so lousy in making decision be it in studies , friendship , relationship all of these . im always so fickle minded and always i couldnt make up my decision when can i really change this habit of mine , it had taught me several lesson in relationship , friendship and studies , all i got the consequences for not being able to make up decision and landed in a state that i've nv wanted , overall i jus feel like saying CHAI PEI EN YOU SUCKS TO THE CORE , JUS A DUMB . .. jus now i went over to my house nearest shop to ask for the amount of money i got to pay for repairing my usb connecter of the phone they said $45 ... looking at my phone , whole lot of scratches and ytd it jus dropped to the floor and "danced" for awhile and now it left me speechless .. on th way home from bishan , looking at the windows drips of water slide from the top to the bottom , its jus like my tears rolls down from my eyes , i felt heartpain & gradually i feel so moodless . i hate myself , i hate to be landed in tday . i sucks & im lousy freak. i just want to cry it out loud & i need a pair of ear and shoulder please D: but there isnt ... & now i've reached home for quite long yet im still stuck at telling my mum about this matter. forget it i guess i just have to settle this on my own , i created it ..till here i guess im jus too low to continue )':

lastly , I SUCKS TO THE CORE

& I HATE MYSELF .

im always sucha let down. . .

Labels: heartpain.

you're the best that i ever had

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

8:16 AM ;

Time check : 11.16pm .

is kinda late right ? haha , i decided to post as i was feeling much better be it mood or my stomachache. anw had my 2.4km run today, ok i did get an A positon 56 but im not happy and satisfied , if not that stomachache i had for the last round of the schl i guess i would have get better . nvm is already set like some tomato says , i had already get my A :) ! and once i reach the place i was feeling damnn awful so i lie down and rest lo. then bryan, rayen they all came , then the red-cross ppl come , damn funny , awhile say appendits , awhile say cramp , awhile say gastric then got what stitches or what one , so the person went to get glucos drinks for me then i rest for awhile and drink the water jiu sit down there all th way to cool down lol and i guess is because i didnt ate much before the run i only eat cup-corn LOL ! so went up to hall , restrest awhile in canteen then go training , nth much coach was training shuqing's shooting and after that coach had to went off earlier for some matches i guess so ended kinda early , on th way home , i decided to go for my durian pancakkkkkke ! HAHAHAH :D THUMBS UP !! i've been complaining that i wants to eat since the day before and now i finally got it hahahaha ! idiotic mememe :) ! walked home in a veryveryveryveryyy slow pace , luckily theres someone to sms with orelse i would have bored to deathe ! reached home ate , bathe , chattttt all th way and went to sleep for awhile and chat on msn again till now . im veryvery tireeeed haha shall get my rest once after this post . ohyah before going off must bring some fcuking idiot into my blog . hey did i offended you ? must you be so kpoh ? laughs i knw you will see this post la , so what big fuck if you are a guy ?! if not ms teo stopped me i wld have slapped you but think back i shldn't downgrage myself to even bother about you this kind of bastard right ? haha im so glad to see your msn writing the girl you like dont like you cos you are nothing much but jus a " XI WEN BAI LEI " translated in hanyu pin yin , for eng i shall say you are a jerk ! EVEN A SHIT WORTH WHOLE LOT MORE THAN YOU . im not even scared you will read this post , once you read it bring it on whatever you want la , boy so what ? you're jus like a piece of shit in front of me . every clouds has its silver lining , so am i la hor. shall not waste too much blog space on you . provoke me all you want and bring it on , im so ready to tolerate whatever shit you had . i cant even be bothered by you la after i heard and think through what ms teo says and lastly , JUST FUCK OFFF , WHAT ARE YOU MAN -.- ( dont ask me who im saying , the person know himself best & you fucker once you see this post if you spam i will ban im ready for all your spammings )

alright im off guys :] , loves !

you're the best that i ever had

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

5:13 AM ;

grats girls for winning against christchurch , you guys done great :) !

the match was soooo excited & the scores kept dragging till same and christchurch starts to buckup slowly at 3 and 4th quater ! jus when we thought we will lost , shuqing shoot a 3point and last min of a layup followed by a dragging time of swing ball , we won ! :D bt is kinda unfair ,

theres alot of fouls that the refree didnt point out however they still won! nvr fail to disappoint us ! rock on ! well done for yuzhen and she was foul out at the 4th quater but the fouls is not cheap foul ok , haha our super centreeee woos ! :] . alright then we bused back schl and homed with joyceeee . haha. ohyeah school was practically the same ? jus that im supersuper awake today as i got someone to sms with hahaah. the most funny lesson is ms dai's lesson-.- the HOD came and we make out a fool of her laughs & she sounds so idiotic when saying out our class mistake LOL. hahah. ok i guess nth much alr , im off to bathe and do my homework soon !

as time goes on comparing abt the past and now ,other than that exactly one thing , i found out that things really changed alot.those who were once to be so close yet turns to be so cold now , not jus one but a few.i miss the past ]: !

hold me tight and nv let me fall ,

im falling off from your hands soon , i hold back my tears ,

i tried to feel that lil sense of happy but gradually ,

those sadness and disappointment cover all of those up .

i'll never wants to love another but you'll never wants to love me ,

i'll nv be the only one for you no matter how much i tried .

all i could do is jus stand beside you all along till the day you notice me ,

i'll wait & wait . for you & jus you, not the typical one

yet the one that mean so much to me.

you're the best that i ever had

Sunday, April 5, 2009

10:57 PM ;

(bday girl ! )

im sicksicksick ): !

woke up at 7plus in the morning with a damn heavy head as though its gna brk like that. however i still pull myself up and washed my face ate and all this. halfway , preparing to get out of house i vomited and yah lo nv go school le. and th things i vomit is nth but jus water which tasted very awful . went back to sleep till now 1plus , my head is still aching & im sms-ing with some tomato-.- ! i've got lots of things undone like , the YOG board i bought alr but nv go schl cant give them and the video cam i need to use for tmr's the girls match with christchurch , i haven talk to ah tang abt it yet ... my homwork for that ms dai & my maths homwork for mr nazied . arggggggggh , so many things ):

my phone got to take for service alr ! my gum is aching for the 3rd week ! my contact lense need to changeeeee ... wthell la so many things , i cant breathe already , but i guess i aint the only one suffering . my poor teamates still got to play a hard match tmr ! but i know they can do it , i've faith for them alrights , love you guys ! & later on i need to go make my phone and contact lenseeee.but now my headache is very pain but if i dont do them today i dont think im free already . 24hs is so not enough for me , or isit i dontknow how to manage my time ? i think so lol. this my biggest problem haha. okay la , i need to eat and went off alr , bye all :] !

missmissmisssssss x ):

you're the reasons that motivates me and i pull myself up ,

jus a look of you im satisfied .

Labels: i felt so weak ):

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6:59 AM ;

(i look like im wearing a shawl though its vest haha)

(half-body :D)

Happy 14th birthday dearest & beloved JoyceLimPeiLing sweethearts <3

1yr older alr , may you have all your wishes granted

& lead a better life ahead ! all the best to you ok :)

remember im always here for you yea & you meant great place in my heart .

iloveyou my dear sweetheart , may happiness and laughters with you ok .

HAPPY ALWAYS , LOVES :) !

eventually the whole 6six of us had a outing for this birthday girl ,

but the 5 of us met up first and headed to choose cakes all this .

headed to cineleisure and its pouring like nobody buissiness and we are all stuck.

the poor birthday girl came over to fetch us and yea we headed to cine then .

but still we got stuck at the california fitness there so we decided to run to cineleisure as it is jus a road away , but the stupid me holding on to the umbrella yet didnt make it as a shelter to run , instead i was drenched-.- ok whatever . im dumb i know. so we went in for the room and ya kbox marathon sinnnnnng nonstop , cut the cake all this and damn vivian make my back with creams and its super oily !haha. but its fun LOL. then we continue to sing till 6plus

& it costs as 127$ plus ok , no joke ! paid and left , headed back to sk for dinner , actually wanted to headed to skcc for awhile yet halfway saw junming , zheyang , dickson , huiyee and prisc.

chatted for awhile and headed to shuqing house , halfway i decided to left first cos i want go home early bcos .. haha jus some reasons but anw came home early is only a waste . forget it.

and ya here im posting , theres only 2photos in my phoen now and i will get it from facebook & once i editted it i'll post it up . stay tune ! its jus a short posting abt today overall its a crazyday , memoriable day , high day and yes im HAPPY TODAY :] ! the happiness of today is not what can be type out through hand and created through fonts in the comp . haha. im learning to feel satisfied , nth is always perfect :).

i may not be the one in th past who can cheer you up anymore ,

but all i can say is when ever you had a fall i will be there to hold you from falling ,

even if you had already fell , i will be the one cleaning the wounds for you .

im jus always beside you no matter what :)

Labels: thats all i could do .

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Saturday, April 4, 2009

4:43 AM ;

this post will be a longglongglongg one.
firstly my dearest and most beloved joyce sweetheart birthday is jus round the corner !
2nd i jus had a very big fight with my mum after a few mths ,
and things turns out real worse ):
3rd im jus super not in mood , dont knw why , i shldnt be like that right ?!
4th recently life is so tired it seems like im really deprive of sleep &
things jus not on th track , i've alotalot of things undone countless..
midyears are coming yet i've left podcast , YOG thing all undone ..
5th i felt so no life nowadays my life jus simply revolve around school & home ,
not even skcc or 260 anymore ! and i miss tons of ppl who are not in our school ,
time to meet ups right ?! esp my dearest wenjun babyyy and my lingling haha !
6th i miss mee toh , when can i fork out the time to go back to see
my most respected miss fong ,principal , most crazy form tcher, mdm ng of our 6-2/07 ,
my class room , my old classmates and those laughters we really need a meet up !
& yes i jus miss my primary school life !
7th im learning to be satisfied but it just seems like theres something lacking ,
can anyone tell me how to learn to be satisfied ? i know its dumb -.-
8th is there any kind souls can appear in my life now to brighten it up abit ?
it seems so dulldulldulllllll thats not what i want !
9th how can i buck up my studies ?! i want go 3h and thats my aim ,
now what i left is jus my english cos my rest other subs is improving alr ,
anyone free to teach eng ? LOL.
10th i need someone now ): i've alotalot of unspoken wordsssss !
....................

okay thats all i guess actually i still got more ,
today we went to PROJECT LOVE CAN , is ok overall and im jus very disgusted
by some idiot uncles who nv wear shirt and jus a super short shorts to come and take the flyer
from me-.- whatever you call it boys or you call it man ,
whatever it is , nowadays males are getting more and more like shit !
then headed back to schl for SL , get scoldings again , guess we really gotta buck up ,
all along 2h has been looked down on others hopefully we can do well for YOG :D !
headed to compass for sheryl lim's belated birthday celebration ,
wanted to have pizza but went to LJS instead , ate and surprise for her !
camwhoreees ! photos are all with joyce :) .
then went to bishan with joyce and cheryl for her phone to service
and thats when i blow my top up on my mum , forget it shallnt bother anymore.
whatever she want to do jus go ahead,
she want to divorce , go ahead once after another time saying this ,
yet they didnt do , anw now we also dont even have a house and i dont felt like im in a family ,
so ya jus go ahead with what both of you want do la , i've been very moody
and things is bothering me stop giving me problems and since im 14 ,
so im ok to work alr and ya i will earn my money later on , jus give me mth fee ok alr.
i wont die with you guys anw hanging on , quarreling having no peace at home
is what im very sick of alr so i wld rather both of you separate and go your own ways ,
lead you life , i will not be a burden to you since im old enough to work alr , go ahead la.
whatever bullshit things you want sign or clarify go find a lawyer
and jus tell me who i will live it thats it im so not going to care anymore im so sick-.-
since p5 the family is broken and now is shattered from pieces to pieces ,
it will nv be back anymore i knw and i understand .
... ok continue so we went shop around all this and
OMG I SAW VIAO RED ! 1799 INCLUDING GST !
but seeing in my stage of family now i know i will nv get it .. hais.
then we bus-ed home , joyce headed to find her primary schl friends ,
cheryl went home and i went for my pimple cream at watson ,
cost me 13.40dollars ! nvm as long as it heals my pimple im willing to pay if i can afford :) .
then went over to action city meet huiyee , freda and shuqing awhile ,
then headed home and here im posting , my comp is getting more and more lagggy .

& tmr we are going to town for my dearest birthday and knw what ?!
KBOX ! OMG IM SO FCUKING IN LOVE HAHAHAAHAH.
ok i shall enjoy till the top tmr since its been long since i really have a proper outing
and proper formal wearing hahahaha ! my heels can stop rot in the cupboard alr
same goes to my shirts and short all these hahahaa.
& i think i need more outings LOL !
okay and thats all i think , bye peoplesss !
4hs plus more to my beloved joyce birthday hahaha :] !

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Friday, April 3, 2009

8:01 AM ;

usual day with usual school routine and trainings :) .
school was fine and thanks lots to my gf for helping me to copy notes for eng <3 .
art sucks-.- , chinese suddenly say got spelling i was like wthell but nvm its not tough for me.
followed by last , sci nth to do one , mdm jamaliah didnt come hahahaha.
then stayed in school went comp lab with joyce and the rest for their projects,
at around 2plus we headed to training , today training is about fake , layup all this ,
and i super loves it man hahah!
training is jus fine but i jus dislike the weather man ,
finished at around 6plus and i head off to cc , haha im so in th mood to play bball yet ..
wthell , only play one match zz.
shldnt have go -.- then , went ate ,
slack awhile , bathed and homed.
wtf , my pimples are popping out i need help !
& my eyes got a redred thing at the side is very pain and swollen ,
my gum is hurting me for 1whole week going 2 weeks ,
wthell is going on man , sucks !
I NEED HELP ): !

& you yes you fucker ,
you're pro so what sia ? you like to put salt on others wound ah ?
even when you see im angry . fcuk off la , i've been tolerating you la hor ,
luckily now nv see you so often orelse i wil puke man.
when i say we thrash woodgrove all this and that you shoot me back with this
" is we meh not they meh " whats this ?
IS A FACT , i know ,
you dont know how i felt jus stfu can ?
the feeling of disappointment ,
the feeling of seeing your teamate working so hard yet you are sitting there doing nth ,
the feeling of being left out , such and such ,
you dont know la jus shut your big fat mouth up can ?
know you limit and be a gentleman lah hor .
you count yourself as a man ? i see you as a JERKS _l_ .

you're the best that i ever had

Thursday, April 2, 2009

4:13 AM ;

i dont know how to start this post ..
grats the the girls , you guys won against yishun sec.
schl was usual but abit more entertaining as i got a stupid to sms to.
released at 12.30pm to accompany girls to sbc ,
and grats to boys too :)
... i got no more to post , my post recently is rather short ,
as im really not in mood , things is not going smooth for me ,
i hate it.
being in th team , i couldnt experience , share , feel what they are now ,
during the games i can only be sitting outside shouting and cheering ,
other than that i couldnt do much , seeing them run up and down ,
so tired for the team , yet im sitting down there ..
i felt so useless ... now i felt , im not qualified to be in this team,
even if they win , i shld not be counted inside ..
my number 12 shld be a very nice number that plays in th court ,
yet in the sbc paper , number 12 is being strike out ,
this feeling really sucks. its suppose to be a very nice number for a very nice player ,
yet i wasted it .. i dont fit to be , neither shld i be in th team .
i jus couldnt stand this feeling any longer , i dont know who to speak to..
and i guess even if i speak to anyone theres no much console becos ,
is a FACT .
i jus can cry this all out alone to myself and put all this emotions and thinking to myself.
WHY ME ? WHY ISIT ME ?
NO DOUBT , IT SUCKS TO THE CORE , FCUK.
its just been troubling alotalot of times .. i guess i wont be going with the girls for the match anymore ... jus all the best to them :)

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Wednesday, April 1, 2009

8:09 AM ;

actually i didnt wanted to post ,
but now i jus want freaking rant something _)(*&^%$#@!
I HATE MY COMP ESP MY NETWORK ,
IT FUCKING DC-ED ME AT THE WRONG TIMING
AND I MISSED SOMETHING AND DUE TO DC-ED
I CANT VIEW WHAT THE PREVIOUS MSG IS.
IS LIKE WTF CAN ?!
perhaps , its jus fate.
everything left me jus soo speachless.
one after another tornament reaching,
going to training im like so free and nothing to do there ..
they are all suffering after the tornament yet being in th team i cldnt share,
what they are experiencing now , poor thing for them ..
& i really getting more and more couldnt stand the feeling anymore ,
just seems so extra .
& you readers must be sick of my old and same rants right ?
it jus couldnt erase away from my mind , no doubt ,
this feelings sucks to the core.

im off to sleep now , i hate F-A-T-E ,
and i hate my comp if i got money ,
i will throw this fcuking comp straight into the bin ,
useless network _l_.

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