mondaaaaaay blueees !
okay today im kind of high and low , dont know hw to say ,
but i can say is i pay alot of attention on maths :)
hahah ! & i hate mrs lee sing yee !
she is sooo gross with her facial expression ! pui !
& class is like the same , as chaotic as ever so we dragged her lesson for 15plus mins laughs !
hahahaah , shld have dragged even longer isnt it !
had our ST today , is like so easy when im so parnoid over it ,
cos i couldnt afford to fail anymore ! i want get good grades for midyear
but sad im one who dont do homework only studies for exams haha!

released at 2pm and mr lai is fcuking stupid to be fool by me and girlf ,
over filling & feeling-.- damn idiotic !
ate and went for training ,
tornament is on tmr , and today when i see them train sets ,
sitting with carmen i think she knows how i felt ,
how i wish i can play tmr , how i wish i could help georgina & christabel ,
how i wish i could perform , how i wish i can thrash woodgroves ..

jus HOW MUCH I WISH i can do something for the team.. and yes is only wish ,
all the best girls , i'll be there supporting you guys ,
kailing rmb we said ok , thrash woodgrove gogogog !
jiayou kangbai !
after training headed to cc jus awhile ,
off to eat and homed around 9 , here im posting !
haha , tmr though i couldnt play but i can wear my NUMBER 12 !
OHYEAH !HAHAHAHAH :D:D:D

no matter how much i've done , how much i felt for you ,
till the very end i got nothing ,
i guess theres no need for you to wait till that day ,
now to you , you clearly knows your ans i guess ,
i'll jus nv be the one . . . i wonder whats that pulling me back ..
how long will i really need to really put this whole bullshit down ...):
is jus too late to say anything anymore.. life jus got to go on and on ,
and thats life , with ups and downs , unforgettable memories ,
once bitten twice shy , i wil turn wiser for the next .


& polar bear ! cheer dont be upset haha ,
learn from memememe !
ohyah , is been long since i talk to a crab !
crab if you see this must talk to me soonsoon , time to update alr haha !
see im sucha good friend to both you right haha great me LOLS !

i slept quite early ytd jus around 1plus ,
and i think im really too tired to think anything anymore ,
once i got on my bed i fall asleep already although i was actually sms with someone.
and i manage to woke up at 9 today ,
nothing to do , due to the overwhelming of boredness ,
i went to watch channel 8 all those kids show laughs.
and now is alr 1plus that yeohuiyee is awake alr ,
time for lunch ! HAHAHA .
im still feeeling veryvery down , maybe time to get some idiot to make me lighten up ,
who shall be the one ? haha . any kind soulsss ? LOL.
okay i shall blog later on anw i guess i will be stuck at home today ,
while mum is away from SG.

i wonder why must we come to this stage ,
thinking back those words you said , i dont see anything meant anymore ,
whats hurts th most is you mention abt something i felt so ridiculous ,
is too ridiculous to believe ,
in the first place, what do you treat me as ? ... toy ? i guess so .
comparing the past on how you treat me , and now what you've said ,
i felt so ... i dontknow im speeechless for it anymore ...
you no longer is the one i know , i dont exactly knws what you're thinking now ,
what you wants know ..
everything had changed .

Labels: those words from you created my worst nightmare .

i've been thinking what to post ,
and i came with no conclusion so i decide to type what i feel like to
and what i wants to , jus randomly.
times past damnnnnnnnn friggin slow today , thats first thing.
and 2nd , im flooooooded with work esp school work and monday ST -.-
i dontdontdont want to fail anymore i want get rid this word from my maths ,
yrs of school lifes my maths really sucks i can say now i suddenly feel like bucking up my maths.
3rd , 24hrs is just not enough for me , i need to train , play bball , homework and such and such..
4th , i feel like going down now to do my 10rounds running which im suppose to be doing ,
sequencely in weeks.
............and yah alot more , my mind now like the biggg drain ,
thoughts seems to gush in like water ,
fast and strong .
and ytd and today i've been running home from compass ,
today bcos i went to get my contact lense solution ,
is kinda incovenient fr me to run , but eventually i did , yet lesser ,
so i punish myself by climbing stairs to house and dear readers ,
my block got 16 storeys i lived in 15th storeys -.-
i almost faint and i sweat like the water tap is open when i reach home ,
and my auntie asked me why lols-.-
and after bathing all this im here posting .
nothing much today jus a boring day .

im stuck in you , i felt so messed up ,
i dont know what is up nxt and what to do next ,
i know the person living in your heart ,
who you will miss, care , love and jus give yourself in ,
will never be me , though you are the one for me .
i will not regret that i fall for you ,
but think back i will regret why didnt i hold you tight enough ,
& why didnt i got you to be mine , the one i love the most ,
which makes me in dilema now..
i felt so moody and jus :( .

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I GOT MY JERSEEEEEY !
alright , i got it and is kinda big but well who cares ?!
as long as is number 12 im fine with it man ! haha.
the cutting is said to be small , yet now they bomb us with big ones -.-
anw training was focusing on boys today ,
so we girls some were shooting , some layup.
everyone seems to be indulging in sets for tornament ,
hoping it to success and win points for tornament ,
everything is tornament , jus nth
but a tornament that i wont be playing , i felt extra..

ok whatever , im jus ranting , i will be fine days later on i guess :)
anw theres nothing much i can do , i shld be glad coach said im still in th team
& im allow to have the jersey ..
argh whatever . lesson is giving me a hard time !
new sitting arrangement , freaking hell i sit front row !
okay la sitting with marcus tay aint that bad except he abit horny and NOISY !
nvm haha at least i can sleep , but today i keep tell myself
" cannot sleep you cannot sleep" so i didnt .
and i had a hard time i sumpa man ! so i lie flat on table during eng
COS I REALLY CANT TAHAN ALR !
anw this tcher .. forget la he CMI one lor-.-
other than that lesson is ok :)
after training i went to buy my subway EAT FRESH !
hahaha ! im so addicted to their double choco and white chip cookie !
haah bus-ed home with joyceeeee haha !
and here im posting , im happy my dear readers :)
okay i know im random and cheer my dearest girlf !
bye dudeeees !

Labels: Its a mystery how long will this last once again.

eventually i gave training a miss , but i chose to sit there and look.
my thigh and butt is still very pain -.-
and i think im going over to a chinese sinseh around hougang tmr ?
dont know lols. school life continues tday , slept at quite late ytd
and so as expected i overslept today , but luckily im not late :)
lessons is still so boring , esp during geog , sucks big !
i really dont know how am i going to survive for my rest of the school lifes ,
esp my mid-year examination ! it seems like my heart is not with studies nowwww !
ok whatever , so i stayed at bball court for 3whole hours ,
aint bored at all cos i was really listening to what coach is teaching
& when they play 5 vs 5 how i wish i can play please ... hais .
yah and so briefing and coach is kinda angry ,
released and walked to buy bubble tea with shuqing ,
actually wanted to walk home but my leg -.- so i trained home ,
heereee im posting :)

when coach talk about tornament experience ...
majority raise up their hand cos they were not experience ,
yet now , not long later they will be in SBC & playing the tornament ,
experiencing the feeling of war , th nervous , calmness ,
shoutings of coach , sounds that comes from the friction of shoes and so and so ...
me , being the one unexperienced yet ,
actually i can be experiencing not long later on too ,
however ... yea im still vry stuck up in these ,
why must i be a foreigner ,
why must i be one yr older ..
is just so FUCK and i hate it ,
i really wish to go down and play as a team ,
win together , work together ,
experience the feeling but ,
i couldnt ,
no one knows this feeling of mine , disappointment . . .
well , not really in good mood , im very vexed and frustrated today ,
but still i jus got to go on with my daily life , no matter what ..
im very tired , in any ways , i want to have longlonglong holidays ,
i want to sleeeeeep veryveryvery long ,
life is so happening .

Labels: im stuck with everything thats leading in my life now.

today is kinda hectic life for me i can say ,
ytd night didnt really sleep well , early morning mum woke me up ,
cos my grandma had heart attack and followed her on ambulance to AMK hospital ,
dont really know what hospital itis but i guess is her always go de hosp ?
lols and ambulance is damn cool ! HAHAH . idiot me.
accompany my mum to go to do those paperwork and registration ,
i sitted at the resting places of the hospital for hours
and i swear is damn boring , got alot of times i kept fall asleep !
& yea sorry kailing , actually wanted to meet you and buy shoe at queensway ,
however things turns out like that , real sorry !

& yea i waited for verrrry long ok i swear ,
and like around 4pm i finally took my uncle car
and back home , im damn tired i swear go i give going cc a miss
and help shuqing do her work on my comp instead.
& my house is over-crowding ok ! more than 20 ppl i think -.-
ate , i manage to escape and find some.. she got alot nickname la
emo freak , polar bear alotalot la , stupid ppl also can haha .
yea so went over mac to find that wong bao yi !
study with her you will die lor she so noisy ! haha tsktsk !
and someone is very angry , ok lar cheerup ok idiot :)
stop all your emo lar , so retarded can ?!
haha , be honoured i post you on my blog , but you dont read ppl's blog -.-
asshole ! haha & thnks for helping me do some of my maths ques !
after that , some sotong come with NOTHING in her hand ,
so yeah lor she bored to deathe there and keep laugh at me and baoyi ,
LOL ! no choice , being with some retarded ones , i got to be abit retarded to pei he her haha.
then sotong went home at around 9 ,
and both of us stayed , but homed not long after.
and someone is sosososos stupid and ya jus stupid ,
still say me ! " NI SHI BEN DE HAI SHI BEN DE ?! " ( saying bak to you now !)
haha then ok la abit KIND , she send me till the junction there and went separate ways alr.
SMS YOU STILL SAY ME NAGGY ! ASSHOLE !

ok til here , nothing much and aww ,
march hols is over , school life remains on tmr ):
serious is damn fcuking shag , im deprive OF SLEEEP PLS ):
what isit man ? you call it life ? fcuk !
bye dudes!

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im still stuck in the thing on tornament , but i cant do much too i guess...
is set and jus my luck right ? hais.
alright , afew more min fr me to post before i off to meet thay yeo hui yee at rp mac !
raining dayyyy is sooo moodddy ! dont know why or maybe my mind is on someone else.
and yeah today is kinda busy day , morning woke up kinda early
& went over to my aunt house , nothing much but using her comp
& played games on facebook.
then headed for SL meeting ,
& bought my lunch then home.
moody day best is to sleep right hahah !

& im still wondering if i shld go back to you ,
maybe im wrong to suspect you but
i really dont know which part is true or fake .
& yes im afraid i will make a deeper fall ,
cos i really couldnt take it anymore , my love for you is far too much than i expected to be.
even if there would be a second one but the love will not be as much as yours ,
& i'll never love another , you are the only.
& i guess thats what ppl says ,
the person you love most are the person who hurt you most,
i believe :).

Labels: you lead my heart.

well ,by looking at my tagboard i guess you guys is guessing what happen yeah ?
people says the biggest hope you've got , the greater disappointment you will get ,
& yes i got it now , after so much scoldings , so much ups and downs,
trying hard and atttending training , coach put me in the team and yes i got 12 ,
a very meaningful number and i love it & yes i heaved a sigh of relieve when coach asked me
for my jersey sizes and number i want , the happiness is not what i could type it out now ,
the feelings of accomplishment after much hardwork .
& now jus when i thought things is over and im going to wear my favourite number jersey ,
to play down at SBC court and PLAY as a school team player ,
PLAY in GLORY and COMPLIMENT for the team and for the number im wearing now
& yes for myself , proving to coach im his right choice.
& YET . . .

things like to went wrong in th last minute ,
due to my age problem , i couldnt qualify ,
i dont blame anyone but myself ,
being a foreigner . . .
is just a step to my dream but it shattered
& yes all hardwork came down drain , even though i still got the jersey
& yes im glad coach said soemthing " no replacement "
as what coach said , im still in th team treat it as minor injuries ,
but this is too cruel for me , the reality . . .
tang said im the strong girl who always scold him but i would like to say
IM NOT . im really breaking down .
looking at my previous post , and now this post ,
it seems like my life jus seems to be going down slope ,

Im glad i've got sucha teamates who cared for me that much ,
console me & even came to my blog and tag,
thnks much loves . esp yuzhen and joyce .
thnks for consoling me when im crying , it helps alot .
& here i've some words for the second five ,
having training and playing friendly i always dont really scored and played well ,
today before tang said out about my matter , georgina you fell ,
i know you are trying hard to be a good dribbaler ,
you are great my dear girl , today theres alot of passing you passed good and
yes you didnt give up , get on ok ,
we aint the main five but i know you can do it , with your discipline
& yes you can play well .
Christabel , you do read my blog yea ?
i hope you came across this.
we seems to be good in muo qi uh ? haha today theres alot of passing ,
im sorry i missed kinda lots of ball , my dear sometimes you jus got to play hard
& have the determination to run ok ?
then you will cfm got alot of points ,do you know your lan ban actually percentage very high!
so yes , jiayou jus abit more of hardwork you can reach th top alr !
all this is what i can say , in a way of my thinking and obviously i aint up to where good ,
and when coach asked me today
" you think you play well ? " i answered "no "
and yes i've been really improving veryvery slow ...
yeah , so i couldnt play with you guys alr , but i know with
CHRISTABEL AND ANGLEA the centre ,
geogeo the controller & jeanie , w.o me you guys still can play well one right ,
cos i only can dribbal abit only and yah ,
GO ALL THE WAY MY DEAR GIRLS !
& chris !
i hope you can divert my muoqi with you to geogina ok !
i know you can de right , then angelea you got the size to eat ppl
so be daring and you can really play well , even better than me one ok !
you guys can de ok ! second five , JIAYOUS ! :D
haha of cos not leaving out my dear girls, first five!
esp my dearest joyce and rest ok .
KANGBAI C-girls jiayous ok ! and i will be the cheerleading .

im glad i've got sucha teamates
& a coach i always thought to be dislike-ing me ,
yet could actually spoken those words to console me .
i've nothing much to say but jus im sorry i couldnt help much for the team .
In conclusion , is a console to me i've got sucha caring team towards me ,
thanks guys , i love you all ok :)

Labels: not a typical person can understand this feeling of mine now.

( the above post is just pure curious out of daydreaming hahahahaha !)

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heyheyhey!
MISSS CHAI IS BACK FROM THE KL TRIP YEAYEAYEA !
did any souls out there miss her ? hopefully there is lar orelse she will be so sadded! hahah .
&she is so unluckily sick ! she also knocked her head against the front bed thing ,
its now swollen annnd hurting ! is foolish when she actually hurt it , jus to lie down on the bed !
okokok , iiiiiii im just being lame for the first few sentence and dont laugh for what i've jus mention though i know is freaking stupid hahah , i laughed too.
okay basically th trip is fun overall but scary & yes is very chi ji when playing catching games with tchers -.- laughs !
well , some scary things happen on th second night ,
when i went to joyce's room , sandra was in th room bathing ,
and she asked us to go first , so then from what she say , she heard weird noises .
okay nvm , then when ytd we went shopping and started to chat with ms teo ,
about she knows im in th room anot cos that day bernice kwan and her came ,
liying blurblur open th door bigbig , her blur-ness make us escape ok haha
plus joyce great act and we are actually hiding behind a wall that once they walked in ,
not a few steps they could caught us red-handed alr haha.
then ms teo and bernice kwan continued to walk down and that time ,
sandra , vivian and me alr left our room , surprisingly
ms teo was still suspicious but when she walked till our room ,
she heard NOISES , WHEN THERES NO ONE IN TH ROOM !
and theres 3 key for a room , our tcher took 2 we took 1 ,
so yeah ... wtf -.- luckily is last day , pheww.. but im still very scared that thing followed us
back to sg , i hope not yea ? and pray hard for meeeee ):
and no wonder i couldnt sleep and felt weird the last night...-.-
ok so yea , th food there is nice , but the first day lunch is SHIT TOTALLY SHIT !
worst of all is at malacca , wtf embarrass my hometown ! _l_
other than that is food and th hotel brkfast is great !:D
then , dinner i ate alot and they say im auntie cos each station take one ,
luckily sherie also ! hahaah , but for me is like , hello ? is only 2days here ,
is either you eat your fill and enjoy your this 2days or you dont eat and make it nothing amazing , right ?! so yeah hahah . is nicenice ok plus the desserts all this lar ,
however compared tgt i prefer the dinner 2nd day than th 3rd day lunch ,
cos when i walk off and haven eat finish th waiter go take away the food alr -.-
thenthen , i love bus ride lar , behind the 5 seats is ours !
we all make the thing till very low and you from behind see you can see is like a bed ok !
and for once and all , we are very united ok ,
me , sandra , vivian , yeewei and siewyi haha ! cos we scold ppl tgt when they talk very loud ,
keep on " diam lar! " here and there laughs ! hahaahah memoriable !
then trekking is AWESOME , im like sucha good protector ,
protecting those who are afraid of those branches and leaches ,
and got a few got onto leaches , and im sorry beatrice when i burn th leeches off ,
i burnt till your skin ! hopefully not very pain k ! sorrrrry D:
hahah , and th leeches is sooooooo small , oh dear , so this says , " NEVER BELIL INSECTS "
even if its size is small , or you can say is like CHILLIPADI ! right ? hahah !
then first day bus ride my bladder almost burst -.-
luckily amelia run with me tgt , hahaha ok lar i dont find it embarrassing ,
infact is funny ok hahaah .
then ... ok wait let me flashbackk...
ohyar about the firefly park !
begining i find it very nice lar , but behindbehind that time abit boring ,
and i think i saw crocodile ? i dont know but im sure ,
theres alot of rubbish -.- yucks !
(ok.. flashback again arh ... hangon !)
i think nothing more lar ,
last day shopping trip , we bought the same bag :)
me , shuqing and joyce .
hey guys , i may or may not be in th C div team ,
but great thnks you guys counted me in to buy the bag
and actually encourage me to continue playing even though after coach decided not to choose me
ok ?monday is the trial , hopefully i can get in , but im prepared for th worst alr ,
i will move on , i belived with you guys i can trained to be better and get in nxt yr ,
if i didnt this yr alrights :)
& yea anw the bagpack is cheap too ! RM35.90 ,
+-+ .... is around 12 dollar plus sing ? hahah , worth it !
and i bought a NUMBER 12 BADGE ,
fucking nice and i love it , cos ITS NUMBER 12 :) !
and yes after this trip , i find that 2H is a unique and special class to me ,
though we aint good in cheering and high all this ,
yet those times we go crazy in bus and during meal time all this ,
talking abt those rubbish we always does is really what other class dont i guess ?
and yes overall i love 2H alrights , we will always be !
i believed , we are not shown to be united but deeply inside ,
we are when we met with problems tgt abt the class cos ,
ITS 2H , 2HYPER ,SOARING AS ONE :)
lastly , i love you guys alrights , joyce ,liying , shuqing , yongqin , michelle ,
thnks for everything and all th care i get from you guys ,
and i know you guys is there when im alone , esp joyce ,
i love you sweetheart ! i know you care for me though you dont really show too much out ,
rightright ?! HAHAAH , without you im nothing , so does th rest ok !:D
last but not least , of cos sandra tan and vivian chua my roomates :)

& theres no definite ans ,
what you doing now is getting more and more like what x have said
and yes i couldnt hate you ,
but all i could say , get a life please
or maybe , we shld end here , end this whole story of ours,
you werent the one i get to know in th begining anymore ,
for you i've done all i could ,
teared for you several times ,
the hurt you've caused is so clearly shown that you actually meant so much to me ,
yet im nothing to you and yes you dont give a damn .
i couldnt blame you but myself being so willingly giving in to you ,
now i guess is enough and we shld end here .
i find that you are heartless.. or maybe you're more self-centred ,
and you've failed to be the perfect one anymore . . .
& yes im moving on , strong and daringly , without you :)
is so like putting down at 1000000000kg plus stone down in my heart ,
idontknowwhy ...

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was halfway packing my baggs ,
ok everyone is sleeping alr im here packing , know why ?
cos i dont intend to sleep hahaah.
ok will be away from 11 to 13 for learning journey to KL .
hohohos , my country ok i love it :D !
and i will miss tons and tons of people ...
hmm ... you you ,her her , him him blablablassss !
alot okays ! wish me luck fr th trip and come back safely ,
I DONT WANT TO SEE ANYTHING WHICH I SHLDNT SEE ,
you know i know ! WINKS ;))))))) !
and i only got one amulet , enough ? i swear i will bring it with me wherever i go ,
even bathing i put it beside me hahaha !
okok bigggggg smilllleees before i went pack and ton for th whole night ,
:)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) ! NIGHTS SWEETIES !
theres this special someone in my mind now
& i wna start afresh ! :D

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just came home .
gave training a miss and actually wanted to buy bag with mum ,
in th end , mum dua me -.-
think back for training , i feel so ...
all coach do is despise me , maybe th way he teach is to correct us and push us ,
but for me it dont work .. in fact i felt more tired and tired ..
im turning officially 15 by nov , tornament on MARCH ,
does it mean i still can play ? or i couldnt ? i dont know ...
maybe all along for th 1yr plus of playing bball , im jus a weak ass ,
whom is useless and not even qualified for c div ..
th sec 1s are real great , their determination and their learning ,
is fast and correct , unlike me ..
always so slow .. is not something i want but i dont know why ... did any wire of my brain plug
to the wrong side ? or im jus not fit for basketball ..
i've been doubting myself comments for myself either from coach or others
have been gradually proving me like hey " you're a Loser of basketball "
and im jus a pentimun 1 indeed ... i dont know what to do ,
it seems like whatever im doing now or leading jus dont went well ,
isit my attitude in learning or my brain problems ?
or whatever i dont know ... i hate myself .
why im always th one being laughed at , th one being commented badly ..
why ? when can i really wake up and be someone useful ,
CHAI PEI EN ! WAKE UPPPP ...!
i want be someone useful but it seems to be like a journey to mount fuji ,
so tall , so high , so far ):
im getting more and more tired , have been telling myself not to give up ,
but it jus seems like nothing changes even my hardwork or seriousness ..
i dont get it , coach says my seriousness is in brain but not action ,
maybe im really a retard , hand and leg couldnt operate ..
maybe , just maybe ,
i shld really give up . . . i want number 12 jersey , alotalot ...
im DESPERATE FOR IT & i want get it with my own skills ..
but it seems like i couldnt and .. i felt so T.T
can any kind souls tell me what to do now ? i dont know ...
i want stamina ):
I WANT NUMBER 12 JERSEY OF COMPASSVALE THIS YEAR ,
this time it aint a joke , im serious I NEED NUMBER 12
IM DESPO FOR IT !

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i should be sleeping now .
but i couldnt ...
is so foolish to actually be so crazy over someone ,
whom actually think nothing of you but ownself.
people used to say , someone who you tend to love th most ,
is actually always th one hurts you th most , its true .
loving th person so deeply , i guess jus a word or jus an action ,
could actually make one's go crazy over it or heart-broken cos ,
th person whom you love , meant so much to you that ,
small action of themselves could actually meant so much in your heart .
if heaven makes us to meet , makes us to have memories thats so deep and memoriable ,
yet makes us to be ending off like a broken string , splitted into half ,
leading its own ways , tell me why ,
heaven makes us to know each-other in th first place ?
in contrast , if we were meant to split ,
does it meant that theres other one who is actually th one whom really meant to be ,
yet not to be met yet , so does it means that we will eventually forget th person ?
if so , no doubt heaven i wna speak soemthing out ,
IM SENTIMENTAL & yes im out of th WE you thought to be .
& you , i've billions and thousands of question that i wanted to ask ,
but before i would be so daring to ask you , it seems like i've providing ans ,
ans that you will be likely to reply and pieces of it forms out one word/ sentence ,
WORD : FOOLING
SENTENCE : laughs im just fooling you , cos i enjoy that attraction & attention !
for this , i've cried over manymany times ... & it left me ...speechless and fooled.
in th first place do you even know how much you actually meant to me ?
to get me all in you , to get me become sucha fool for you
& to get me think about you always ...
how many more years ahead ?
to forget you or i shld say to prove that you've been carved in my heart ?
& you're my everything , im your nothing ,
what you've said is lies & bullshitting , yet
i still loves you .
& yes im still so dumb for you . JUST you ...

Labels: tell me why ..

tireeeeeeeeeeed D: !
& i jus woke up , theres a few things in my mind now ,
1 ; WHERE IS MY FOOOD ? IM DAMN HUNGRY !
2 ; what to bring for KL trip ?! i haven bought my things yet !
3 : which bag can i use ? omg i dont think i got any bag that is big enough !
4 : shld i go cc ? or stay at home study ?
5 : CANNOT SAY :]
6 : tmr got traininggggg ):
7 : shld i upload fotos ?
8 : any song recently is hot and nice ? THINKING ...
9 : I WANT LEARN SWIMMINNNG IS BEING POSTPHONE AGAIN !!!!
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okay crosscountry was damn funny lar , vian and me ran halfway
& we lost our way !
took bus back , met joyce and headed for SL ,
is a damnnnn bored one cos there aint sufficient materials and people ,
so we've done only half of th fencing sword.
& after that we are actually going swimming but while eating ,
looking at th time decided to postphone it , headed to cc instead .
raining cats and dog , but we decidedd to walk under th rain ,
and th moment we reached cc , th rain gets bigger than how it was ,
we were like " phewwww !" hahaha !
i guess it was th rain which make me feels kinda moodless and decided to head home .
reach home and after that chatted with one very stupid person ,
haha , ok im kind lar not stupid shld be fat polar bear ,
and i told her to tag me then we will meet up and she gave me sucha short tag !
so unfair right ? asshole !
eventually , we met up tgt with huiyee and im damn sleepy can -.-
accompany her to eat and after that we were hanging around compasspoint ,
damn huiyee she was damn high lar keep suan me ! asshole asshole !
sat down and slacked , kinda long and thnks arh ,
i was th one keep shuffling and giving out cards when playing daidi . grr !
was at there kinda long that finally some polar bear give an idea of going somewhere ,
around kovan to eat th soya bean dont know what lar , took 119 :)
( brb im off to eat first )

okay im back and th food taste like shit ! is not nice at all please -.- damn oilyyy !
and yea we took 119 haha im crazy when im in th bus asking huiyee abt some places .
reached , ate and chatted .
took bus back and halfway they decided to stop down play pool ,
& wtf i saw x -.- it seems like he is still th same ..
& . . . speechless !
so obviously i will walk off right ?
and we took bus back to cp once again , then headed to buangkok slack .
chatting , playing cards and blablabla ,
walked home & hahahaah my parents are all ASLEEP !
used comp for awhile and im off to sleep alr :)

and know what guys ?
i've bought a story book to read and th title is " BROKEN "
is damn nice and awesome haha . get it at popular !
and i find that is finally that today , i can sleep all i want till whatever time ,
is soooo great having this kind of days and it seems like ,
it have been weeks that i didnt have these days .
okay im seriously nothing to post anymore ,
training is tough , life is like shit , studies is like whatever lols.
....................................
i can only think of one and that one mostly in my mind aint you
but is you , however i wonder why i felt that way when i saw you .
is complicated... and daily life matters makes me feel so diff to even not to rmb you ,
JUST ONE DAY . . .
this road , how long would it takes ? i feel so tired now ....
well is jus out of randomness and i guess you guys dont have to know who is th 2 you
& yea dearest vivian chua ,
cheeer ! lead a better life w.o this kinda jerks !
boys nowadays jus so sucky and yea ,
ytd while i was talking to polar bear , i was kinda tired
but when we come to th topic of bad points abt boys ,
i feel so energetic and i guess i could state more than 10 man.

where is all th good boys ?! all extinct or no longer in singapore ?
it seems like girls and boys roles is being swapped nowadays ...
what a world ! ok bye peoples !

Time check : 1.22am
& im posting !
no photos for today , well jus finish watching shutter ,
soooo boreeeed , th overall storyline was th same jus th character changed
& yes i watched before alr & is damn freaking stupid reminds me of certain things...
and though i've watched it alr but is veryvery scarrrrryyyy ):
somemore im watching it alone , kinda makes me think how great would it be ,
if theres soemone beside me accompanying me to watch !
last time it was my cousin but she went my aunt house to stay alr ,
left me alone D:
okay enough of craps ,
school life was getting more and more boring ,
take today as example , CL teacher didnt come and i draw for th whole lesson ,
eng slept fr th whole lesson while art , half of th lesson ...
seeseeseeee ! is boring isnt it ?i dnt wna sleep anymore but is really BORING !
& aww , i've been kind of concentrating alr
but i still failed 3sub & ms teo is calling my parents !
....no comments :)

mum is sooo funny arh ?
she says as long as it wasnt mid-year result is ok
& tcher calling her is what she cfm will get everyyr
what i can say is " orh ok lo good " cos is fact haha.
& im not improvinggggg notgoood ! failllllled !
what should i do ?
arggghhhhhh , life life life ..
thinking back at 2008 , begining of th year i felt so carefree !
& happiness seems to be with me all day long man !
WHERE IS THE ME IN 2008 ?!?!
any kind souls can help me get me back?
what talking me -.- okay is retarded i know.
but well 2008 aint a good year i would rather 2009 is tough in th begining
and better at th end of year , not like 2008-.-
sucks ok !

crosscountry tmr and once again , i haven sleep .
feel like ton-ing th whole night since i got to wake up at 6am ? lols.
1week ago we went pasir ris park and is sucha great place for running,
hmm , i shall open a chalet there or maybe a holiday chalet?
ok what talking me again , overrall I JUST WANT CHALET AT PASIR RIS PARK !
i wna walk at th beach in th night , th windddd omg so nice !
hahaha i can imagine it now alr ! esp theres this rock specially thre ,
okok enough im going crazy anw , i dont think i will be so rich to open chalet there lor ):
saddddedd ! & tmr we are going bedok resevoir ? lols wheere th hell is this ?
laughs , later lost halfway then dont need go hahaha !
SL meeting tmr im still in a lost of what to do , obviously ,
i aint a good leader , sooo sorry guys ,
once again I FAILED ):

just got to pick up slowly i guess...
hopefully... okay shall catch some sleep before i went for th run later on ,
anw im tired pls ! but i dont know why i jus couldnt sleep !
you know you know ! ppl usually seems to be more emotional at nigth than th day ,
so cant blame , and th day is for day-dream ,
night is for what ?!
NIGHT-DREAM LAR! okay i seems to be self-entertaining-.-
sounds retarddded i know but im veryveryvery sian arhhhh !
okay lar , byeeeeeeees people !

Labels: Comparing, Regrets and Missess overwhelminggg

photos above are taken by me this few days:)

Eat , sleep , schooling , training , bballing , homed .
my life this few days revolves around home , cc , 260 & school ,
nothing else , leading kinda boring yet shag life ,
training mon , wed , fri ...zzz.
currently training hard for tornament , hopefully i can leave good impression ,
play well and dont let coach look down on me anymore :)
i just got to keep myself veryvery occupied because ,
i dont want to think abt thinks that really sucks , yea .
sometimes , things just seems to come in wrong timing ,
i wonder whats going onnnn ?
well i wont be updating more about daily life but just ranting
& overall bcos i find it sosososos borinnng to post abt it , i guess you readers aint interested at all
isnt it ? is like so nothing-special !
wellwellwelll , let me think about what to post ....
OHYAH , im terribly sorry for not uploading photos due to some technical problems -.-
ok is cos my lousy and outdated compppp & my lazyness .
btw , our class tee is herehereheree , okay i admit im damn kia su arh ,
th cutting and printing was damn big and baddd but material was great ,
and i jus keep ranting to msteo abt th printing on my EXACTLY shirt , so suay -.-
and she is good to change with me , hohohoho !
Kl trip on wed , im veryvery eager on it ,
but it just sucks when my phone aint really working !
anw , i feel so lucky to have weichong to actually LEND me his psp for that 3days 2nights ,
aww , great friend hahaah ! brotherbrother !
thenthenthen ... what more to posst ?
basically im leading a fine and simple live now ,
just waiting for some kind souls to actually really brighten it up
& entertainment , other than that im ok with my beloved ones in school .
THEY ARE GREAAAAT & I LOVES THEM !:D
specially thanks for a few some much-appreciated caring from these fews ,
when im feeling down / happy for this few weeks ,
of cos theres this dearest Joyce sweetheart of mine ,
thanks for unwillingly listening to my troubles and trying hard to advice me leading me through
this piece of darkdarkdarrrrrkness.
So does some monkey sheila ,
& yeo huiyee and to man si to accompany in th night till morning ,
which i cried & needed someone to speak to .
for you guys , im sure i will walk through this path ,
for th one last saying and most determined promise.
loves :)
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anymore to say ? ohyah i've got this person to thanks to !
she is cheering me up in school and she got this weirdweird sound effect ,
and weirdweird way of cheering but what i feel most great is ,
she herself is down but she still cheeered me up !
thnks girlf , sandra tan !
sorry sometimes i didnt laugh at your so-called sound effect or cheerings but
IS APPRECIATED i swear :] !
haaha you too , cheer okay ?
....
okay whats wrong with me ?
thanking ppl all around ? hahah theres more okay ,
like so crab who just talk to me ytd :)
MICHELLE CHEN SHI YUN , okay i rmb-ed it , so great of me !
okok , enough of thanking ,
in conclusion i know that im not alone along this path ,
CHAI PEI EN GOT TO BE STRONG RIGHT ?! i know i know :)
& bless me that i can get my centre moves well-trained !
thats all lar , LASTLY OUT OF RANDOMNESS ,
I HATE MY LANGARTS TCHER MR LAI , I'VE BEEN RUNNING OUT ,
MISSING AND NOT HANDING IN HIS HOMWORK !
I DONT WANT THIS ): but i jus couldnt focus on his lessssson !
what the hell is MOE doing ? hiring this kinda of tcher ?!
saying that once he got his pay and thats his work done ?! he didnt even cared whether he
taught us in a right or wrong way ? im damn freak out by him ok !
thats all , byezzzzzzsxzzsxxzswx!
maybe MIA-ing in blogging cos it kinda BORES me ,
& i guess all my readers is running awaaaay alr haha.
im so tired , goodnights all !

Labels: is just time to let go

photos will be up tmr due to my fcuking internet connection .
all along what x & x said and commented is true , i shld have head their advice .
it seems like is abit too late now as i've alr fallen deep into it ,
but i just got to get out of this , deep down my heart now ,
i felt angryness overwhelming so does disappointment & sadness ,
tears rolling uncontrollably , at this point of time ,
i think i've really blinded by th past w.o knowing that you aint actually as perf as i thought to be ,
i've been dreaming and thinking , i wondered was i asking too much just for a talk/chat ?
it maybe or you enjoy fooling me ? at this point of time i would like to say ,
FCUK YOU ! _l_
whats happened is happened , dont cry over a split milk ,
thnks for letting me know theres really this kinda of bastard living on { adapted from x }
but well , i could nv hide that you once really gave me wonderful memories ,
is just that 1/4 of happiness & 3/4 of sadness but still , thnkyou.
if life were given a choice to re-start , i will still choose to meet you ,
i've never regret knwing you and being a fool to you at least ,
i've tried my best . is kinda contracdicting , but still ,
you let me see another piece of world which i think it suits me more :]
Billions of words aint enough to express what i feel and wna tell you now
& blogger aint a private things , somethings shld be meant to be kept ,
afterall , is just the time got to put a fullstop for this ,
enough is enough and th extend of mentally tiredness of mine in this whole matter ,
is not what could be written out easily ,
if die would be able to see how tired i was , im willing to show ,
but im not dumb anymore , is too foolish to do this jus for someone who dont care ..
life just got to go on & i swear im going to find one better than you ,
one who wont broke their promise upteen times ,
one who wont acted to be angel and in th other hand devil in reality deep down in heart ,
one who wont be so self-centred and selfish ,
one who wont be making me giving in and sacrificing as much as you do ,
one who wont be making me cry more than laughing ,
just one who is better than you and suits me more.
Lastly , iloveyou ,
goodbye 18.01.200X { dont ask me what this date is }
it will be th one final time i losing my skin for you ,

Labels: is all hidden deep down my heart .

im back :)
okay eventually i went for th camp 2days 1night .
begining is kinda bored as is pouring heavily , so stay at th hardcourt there ,
went played bball when th heavy rain starts to drizzle , but not long after ,
it rain cats and dogs again .
is kinda long and finally th goodies were here for us to packed.
is kinda tiring but basketball seems to be th most efficient one ! haha!
then went to play bball again .
around 12plus th rains stop and we walk to skcc ,
have our bags and everything there,
settled down and damn monkey sheila is very joker -.-
she found her territory and is th backstage which like kind of creepy ,
but in th end i doze off for awhile and wake up at th so-called territory.
not long later , a few went in for chats ,
me & joyce went to th auditorium seats to sit ,
till sheila says she wanted to go out and walk for awhile ,
walked to sculpture and back to skcc , but before that we sat down
& have kinda heart-to-heart talk ..
thnks dearests for being someone whom i could cry to & being there ,
giving advice for me , i know you guys are trying to help me yea :]
around 5.30am we walked back and oh-my-damn-god ,
is another day that i didnt slept th whole night ? laughs.
so shld be around 30plus hours right as excluded that th previous day i did sleep for around 4plus hours ? hahaha.
th event went well and im sooooooo excited whenever i saw theres this lil kidddy in th run !
hahah obviously i will cheeer for them right !:D
and i remember theres one damnnn cute somemore is canoissan ( ang moh.dont know how spell)
went mac , th damn weather is sunny like freak !
so went back to auditorium and all of us lie dead flat on our sleeping bag and
ZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzz....
till 11am , went off separate ways and thats all :)
came home and sleep all th way till i heard this familiar voice ,
which i've not heard for 1weeks ! guess who is this ?
IS MY MUMMMMMMIIIIIIIEEEEEEEE ! AWW.. :)
wellwell , is contracidicting when mummie is around i always find her naggy ,
but w.o her naggy i feel sooo bored at home and quiet !hahaha .
jus now intended to do my homework , in th end ..
happy new year ah ? i forget bring back my maths tb ):
nvm shall get someone fr th question ! haha.
i guess till here ? short post .
stay tune awhile more when i finish eating , i will post some photos up ,
around 8pm :)

bye dudeees !

Labels: Im not whom you thought to be anymore.