feelings soooo frustrated / regretted/problemactic / hatred . . .
just couldnt describe it , just like a cup full of beer + wine-.-
ok i know is bad example ,lols.
ok , at my previous post i mention im sick & having high fever right ?
till now my fever hasnt gone down .
but th weirdest things is , being sick i shld be resting now yea ?
but i just cnt get myself to sleep , flipping here and there ,
flashing through th past ,my brain is overwhelmed lots of these and that and having mixed feelings right now & so , i still couldnt get to sleep -.-
how i wish at this lowlowlowww moment ,
i could have a listening ear , but i wonder who could i find ?
true friends are seriously hard to find , trustable ones are like digging out a gold in a plain mud ,
wondering what to do for tomorrow ,
is been decades since i rot at home , so maybe i shall rot at home this few days for my illness to recover ? lols .
anw i did went for steamboat at my cousin's house ,
practically , i didnt eat much & luckily mummy decided to take taxi :)
btw , sometimes when i think back ,
i seriously hate empty promises & i guess im begining to hate hearing "sorry" .
i hate th foolish me , hate th gullible me , i sucks _l_
think i gna eat another 2 panadol and try to lie back to bed and make myself to sleep ,
oh , how i wish theres someone able to sing lullaby for me,
laughs , kiddinggggg cs hearing songs already could make me sleep.
lastly , due to nv eat much for th steamboat ,
im feeling freaking hungry right now ,so it would be a enjoy if there is a bowl of hothot hor fan
& a chocolate mc flurry for me right now , haha but is like impossible uh-.-'
in fact , i feel happy to be sick cs seriously i've been eating way too much recently
& i weight much heavier than past , so hopefully this damn illness could get rid my fatssss haha.
enough of craps and bye readers :)
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