A new year , big welcome for 2009 :)
May it be a better and fruitful year for everyone alrights ,
goodbye 2008 , bid farewell to it & those sadful past ;D


Okay , went pasir ris park with basketball teamates :)
th weather is just so random ,
well begining it was hot like crazy , went rent a bike &
aww , jasmine hurt her toe nails , quick recover yeah !
surprisingly , i didnt fall , even at slope ! hahah ,
went over for a small-like cafe for a rest , played billard/pool.
not sure of its names & heres th random weather which started to rain cats and doggggys -.-
around 4plus and we went returned th bike.
went whitesands , ate mac :)
took bus back to sengkang , mostly went home while some went other place else.
trained home , prepare and off i went plaza sing to met th rest .
joy , bernice , baodong , weichong , jerone ,bernice brother and 2other girl ,
while waiting for their movie finished off ,
just so coincidence , zheyang rang me up and said they saw me ,
met up tgt and went ate .
okay for that moment im pissed , freaking pissed_l_
after that they decided to went esplanade ,
walk here and there , sweating all along ,
in th end they decided not to go -.-
went separate ways with zheyang , jingjie and alam.
while th few of us took cab & went rhumbia watch fireworks .
theres super lotsa photos taken but i shall upload tmr cs to be serious time check for now is
5.15am in th morning heheh , my comp went sot again ,
so using cousin's lappy but well , im gna reformat it soonsoon !
went home changed & straightaway i went find huiyee and freda.

saw alam and jingjie they all .
alam bought 3 cans of tiger beer-.-
and i drank th more-than-half can that huiyee left due to too bitter ,
plus another half can , now i feel nth but some headaches .
i want vodka & breezer , esp breezer !
anw , not awhile zheyang came ,
they simply at there use comp , shld have brought this lappy down lols.
anw , they went off earlier cs very sian .
have some chat , ok i feel guys are just kinda bastards ,
seriously i've nv seen this kind of bastards so far , except you fucker _l_
whatever is a new yr , hope everything can go back th right way :)
& actually wna wait for my cousin cs she buying vodka for me,
but suay , she cnt hired any cab so im homed now , blogging :)
oh and now i knew , indians/malay do play mahjong o.o
cs at second floor right outside th lift got a big space ,
while going up i saw either malay or indian at there mahjong-ing ,
which causes my hand so-freaking ITCHY !
hahah , schl starting alr ,
GOODBYE NIGHT LIFE ,
GOODBYE ALCOHOL ,
GOODBYE TON-ING ,
GOODBYE CAREFREEE
& hello to stress ,
homworks
& tchers -.-
okay im kinda lame , whatever bye all !
once again

HAPPYHAPPYHAPPPPPPPPPPPPPY NEW YEAR !

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dont feel like saying anything , sees th expression above you guys will knw .
anw blog aint a safe place to express it out , you knw ..
just wna say ,
th world is so realistic & i sees nothing in friendship .
... byebye.

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a typical day ,
just that i didnt went training .
met huiyee and passed her th ball ,
slacked at cc and shooting.
arnd evening went downstairs cs prisc says zheyang is helping her do homwork .
so bring my maths down and i clear almost all already left a few ones &
im doing it now. thnks zheyang !
260 lights nv on ,
but we still there slacked till 11plus.
&junming ,jingjie and zheyang
training my shooting and centre move , thnks for you guys patience
& sorry for my slow learning !
my injuries is so extra ,
i seriously pray hard plsplspls fast recover pls )':
& joy started to tell jingjie and zheyang piggyback us all this ,
super funny i can say haha ! & i thought im heavy but im surprise ,
joy actually can piggyback me& shuqing ! hahah , i really belittle zheyang and jingjie man ,
& i say something so wrong that out of a sudden zheyang from behind carry me which i really shocked and keep shouting-.-
worst of all , joy carry my leg and jingjie carry my shoulder ,
swing here and there like im a skipping rope lols !
we were just so crazy over there haha.
walked to cp ,
saw someone :) isit coincidence or fate ?
but i choose coincidence as , im unsure for it now .
& homed sweet home !

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MY WOUND IS FREAKING PAAAAAAAAAAAAAIN D:!

im like so no different as a person who dont have a leg and a hands man-.-
anw , went cc and do homwork today ,
bballed quite awhile. i feel myself so fcuking hopeless in maths ..
went over to weichong's belated bday's party .
happy birthday !
& is fun , kana them smash cake
sickening , tell huiyee let me sit th chair she say dont want cs too squeezy ,
then i sit on th floor , left hand injured so right hand land on a piece of cake on th floor ,
slipped and a plastic fork cut my hand -.-
so now im like almost whole body injured , in fact my fingernails crack .
what a luck i have _l_
and i guess im not able to go training tmr
& lance sure wont believe my injuries .

whatever it is ,
i've no mood to think abt other things but pls god ,
just let my left hand recover soon , th wound is getting red and
hopefully dont get infection plsplspls .
anw , slacked at rp mac just now & i freaking hell pissed by my mom man.
nw im home ,
sleepless night againnnnn !
is now 5.31 & my mom's alarm clock just rang .
gna catch some sleep . byes !

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hello readers :)

okay my previous post obviously ,
ytd was a moody day for me anw , but im now okay already .
i told myself i wont be beaten so easily yeh?
haha , well shld have some explanation for it ,
things goes on like this ,
ytd actually intended to have a ride with joy with alam's bike and jingjie's bike.
starting was okay actually ,
but when ending that time , going down slope just somehow lost balanced &fell.
well , this time was abit worse than th previous time ,
but luckily alam's bike not spoiled ,
which makes me heaved a sign of relief ! sorry anw ! ):
but i aint going to give up , no matter how much i fell ,
one thousand , one million or billions times i fell ,
i will still continue to learn till im perfect bt what makes me most angry is ,
I KNOW HOW TO RIDE ,
but it comes to up slope and down slope ,
i always lose my balance , sucks isnt it !
& i heard there's bicycle license ?
i want ! i want it ! anyone knw where to learn and get it ?
maybe this would be better for me hahaha .
& today joy ask me " you still dare to ride bike "
my ans is " yes of cos i must learn it !" hahaha !

anyway , today morning my mum spams me with lotsa of naggings ,
went over prisc house arnd noon with huiyee & joyce .
mahjong ! and i kept losing -.-
arnd 2plus going 3pm ,
zheyang , zheming , jingjie , alam & joy came after going anchorvale swimming.
cool man ! th moment zheyang sat down , few mins later ,
I WON ! nxt round he play again ,
I WON AGAIN !
haha , poor huiyee who was th big winner also nv win dao.
around 5plus they left ,
and we continue mahjong till 7pm like that .
went ate at kfc .
saw some familiar ones .
and some funny things happen !
hahah , prisc went find her mum while me and sweetheart went cupwalker .
saw someone :) & went we walked back metro ,
we only saw joy and huiyee coming out say want go toilet and what poisoned .
followed them and we totally left prisc out man !!! hahaha !
& find and find that asshole , this like sucha big person alr lor !
in th end called her , she finally appeared but ,
appeared in th phone , of her house and she reached her house alr -.-
stupid isnt it ! we like clown like that find here and there .
off to cc played till lights off , bus-ed home with joyce lim!
haha she nv fail to be th listening ear always man.
& after hearing what she said ,
somehow i feel im like being brainwash or whatsoever
& my stands of certain things starts to be shaking now -.-
ahah , whatever man & im right now finding songs for her !
hmm , tonight shld be another sleepless night?
i think i've got to drink alot of chicken essence for it as a makeup ,
lols enough of craps and
bye readers !

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what a day for me .
training was fine except scoldings which im so used to it alr .
& then ,

STUPIDITY _l_ STUPIDITY _l_ STUPIDTY_l_
SLOWNESS , DUMBNESS & USELESSNESS , EMBARRASSMENT. . .
i hate all this with me and im enough of it ,
i wna shake it off ,
i hate to be strong , hate to act like nothing .
i wna cry and scream as loud as i could ,
just like a lil kid who cries loudly when he/she fell down .
i hate tolerating , is really tearing & hurting .
feel so tired , real tired . .
i just wna peace for me to think what to do next.
& i dont want to be beaten so easily ,
but i seems to be suffocating and left not much determination .
is just too TIRING .


& thnks guys for th few moment of entertainment ,
& accompanying :)

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quarrels , quarreeels , quareeeeells _l_

have a bigbig quarrels with my mum and dad ,
& i can say this th worst quarrels ever .
th topic is my hair .
first , is the fact that my auntie lied to me that she say she will only be cutting SOME of th split end while she isnt cause a hair that is longer than shoulder length ,
has now become JUST REACH SHOULDER LENGTH HAIR
2nd , is th fact that for helping my mum save money here ,
i listened to her and went back to rebond yet now i get this result of split end and curl .
3rd , is also a fact that she shld let me have treatment for those split end .
& she refused in fact , she act as though she is some pros in th house ,
saying that she wld help me do by buying those cream.
for goodness sake , she just simply thought that it wld be so easy -.-
as though she got whatever supermagic cream ?
whatever it is , i feel so fcuked up now .
& yah my wrong , everything my wrong .
happy ?!
sometimes , have some thought of whatever im having for now ,
i feel that i deserved it .
because im just too DUMB AND STUPID .
dumb to believe in my auntie .
dumb to be so naive .
dumb to listened to my mum.
stupidstupidstupid _l_
is either now or past ,
im just always so stupid ,
im still always th one to GIVE IN AND TAKE BACK NOTHING BUT TEARS .
im still always th one to feel ENVIOUS BUT NOT HAVING .
im still always th one who always COULDNT GO ON HER OWN WAYS .
im still always the NAIVE AND WISHFUL THINKING IDIOTIC FUCKTARD.
& yah this so stupid me and deserved whatever i've till today ,
regrets , tears , not being able to find a listening ear when i needed , useless ,failure ,
. . . i hate to be strong and cheerful when im not
& i hate to act oblivious when im not ,
hate to escape from truth and hurts
& fcuk I HATE MYSELF _l_
a fcuking night ,
a sleepless night ,
am i being too pessimistic or too over reactive ,
i dont know but now i know i hate myself and i knw im stupid idiot.

Mixed feelings ;

okay now is around 1am plus and just put down phone with th crazy sweethearts of mine ,
talked for arnd 1h plusplus ?
lols & talk to her right you have to double check she is there anot cs she'll always talk to her sister hahah !
anw , nothing much for today .
went bball with those fews and fun anw :)
went mac for dinner and slacked .
walked home alone cs that damn huiyee went off earlier haha .
came back and quarrels , quarrels QUARREEELS with my parents.
whatever but that crazy ass just lighten up my mood ,
actually planned to post a very emo one hahaha .
anw guys , MY HAIR SUCKS !
IT SUDDENLY HAVE SO MANY SPLIT END AND JUST SUCKS _l_

and tmr is christmas eve gna celebrate till damn fun haha !
i wna countdown ! hahaah , bye guys .

well ytd did nth much but enjoying myself whole day hahah !
so great , met up with 6-2ians ,
oh man everyone look just so different ,
damn jianrong 1.8plus height !
damn weijun last time so freaking short now at my shoulder or taller ,
catching up already !
haha , anw slacked at mdm ng hse and i played PS2 with zhixuan and weijun,
freaking hell is like so new to me ,th game knw me i dont knw th game haha !
and they say im meant to be ride cs if i drive to highway right ,
all th car will've to siam and th highway will be turned into a mess by my driving skill ,
hey wrong ok ! thats controller right ? right ?!
for real car got th handle th thingy isnt it so no worries ok , i drive is 100% professional one !

went kfc ate , saw some familiar faces :)
happy eating cs mdm ng treat us 4tub of chicken wings all this ,
and damn jiawei and weeling , still no change eat non-stop ,
each 1 tub , all of us was freaking full and they at there eating those we dont want ,
eating non-stop-.-
went back mdm ng house ,
play eat play eat and went downstairs play bball ,
but some freaking idiots came disturb us or i shld say me ,
my name i used in th past is daphne most ppl pronounce as daf-fen-ni ,
that freaking short justin told his friends my name and knw what ?!
they called me ti-fen-ny -.-
THNKS LOR TURN MY NAME UPSIDE DOWN AND I NV USE THAT NAME ALR !
then when they finish calling me ti-fen-ni ,
they then asked for my name -.-
lolllls , anw went badminton court and played line-catching ,
went really crazy and childish , haha TONG NIAN !
then went back , play and slack once again .
shiok manzsxzzzz ! and pizza for dinner ,
deliver-ed wrongly and had 40drumsticks as conpensation !
and i ate 3 of it haha .
great i tell you delicious and thumbs up !
K- th computer or i shld say back to audi ,
i deprove fcuking lot and im so gna go back to audi and i love it hahah !
went home arnd 9plus , mdm ng chase us out haha !
maybe going mdm ng house on 31st to stay overnight , great yo !

for today,
went training and blablabla ,
coach kp this and that but ok not real tiring .
went 260 played bball ,
back to cc help shuqing do homwork to kill time and let my brain generate , preventing from rusty-ing haha !
went koufu ate ,
shoot balls at 260 for quite long ,
walked home and here posting ,
hahah telling some dude my ambitions ,
laughs !
& i wantwantwant ,
earpiece , viao cs laptop ,addidas backpack , jersey,camera and new nike shoe ,
hahah i guess i can spend more than 2000$ on all these !
crazy me -.-

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hihi readers !

okay im right now posting at malaysia ,
Indeed , a fruitful and satisfied trip :)!
okay first i took one whole 12mths plus for my damn hair to grow sososos long ,
still i decided to cut shorter , maybe gng for extensions:)
have my soft rebonding & overall is nice :)!

bought my new year clothes ,
super cheap !
i bought tubedress , jeans , half-jacket and vest
& cost me malaysia dollar 250 plus ,
well is counted cheap in s'pore already !
hahaha , lovelovelove it yo !
supposed to go back singapore today ,
but well decided to give it a miss and postphone till tmr ,
back arnd 6pm i think ?
haha im oh-so-excited towards th xmas party at mdm ng house yup !
mum is planning to buy me a lappy in malaysia !
hoohoo ! but i've got to use my nxt yr results for exchange if not lappy will be confiscated ):!
okay till here and update tmr with lotsa photos &
byebye readers !
& lastly
HAPPY 10MTHS DEAREST SWEETHEARTS !
thnks for being sucha good advisor & your supersony ear ,
being so patient to hear my rubbish and nonsensical plusplus stuborn thinking ,
will try to change okay! hahah !
you leaving today yeh , hope you could come back safely & have a fruitful trip yeah at vietnam !
takecares and bon voyage !

hello readers !

what a day at home , haha .
& i spent my whole evening watching tong tian gan tan ,
is like finally , i found it and is in good quality :)
luckily my cousin was on hols and she lend me her lappy ,
orelse i guess it would be a boring day to me.

anw , morning woke up arnd 12pm ,
decided to give self-training a miss to prepare my things for tmr's trip .
anw , will be leaving at 6am morning , god is soo freaking early haha .
but to be exact shld be morning went met up with cousins ,
have our brkfast and blabla then take my aunt's car to ride back m'sia.
& oh yah ,
bunch of idiots ,
oh bitch , flirt ? if im a flirt what are you then ,
hahah im sorry i admit defeat cos im not a good snatcher !
claps for you ,
for your changing mask skill , what a good masks changer !
&hey im so disappointed in you , being tgt for quite few mths ,
sometimes almost 1whole mth with you , yet . . .
& i watched a show says ,
if your heart is set , no matter how th person change you'll still think he/she is bad.
& i hate ppl who brainwash others , esp 2headed-snake .
what a world , having sucha ppl around , freaking gross !

bye readers !

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is around 4.o5am now , girlf just sign-ed off.
& tonight shall be a cold night , a night that im gna be thinking alot of things ,
a night that i cant sleep , with thousands of question marks on my brain.
heard a news , dnt know shld called it a shocking one or a tip-off from someone ,
well you guys thought i didnt meantion anything ,im a sick cat who wont yell like crazy ?
okay then i shall prove you wrong & once i ask th matter clear ,
i'll see who's th oh-so-perfect one ,
which thought so highly of him/herself and backstab ppl ,
afterall , what a fcuking two-headed snake , simply no rights alrights .
yah you may say im naive , stupid , dumb or whatsoever ,
but i'll tell you , nv get on my nerves and step on my tail ,
cos th stupid , naive or dumb me will let you see another side &
i'll turn you upside down totally flip down ! no joke .
toleration always have a limit and times of tolerating ,
now i get this fcuking piece of news and is like whats th freaking hell .
okays whatever some of you will not know what im saying & yes you DONT HAVE TO KNOW ,
theres no-need for you to know too and just keep your comments to yourself .
*apologise for being rude if you think im *
to be exact ,i've to wait till morning to get th whole story.

okays lets back abt today ,
nothing much , training was special and fun ?
aww , if every training like todays , it will be great !
haha , after training went bball at 260 ,
bought cupwalker and stroll home ,
sometimes i love long walks , it not only that i could refresh my mind
but it helps me to exerciseee haha !
& oh my cousin is back ! she is having her hols right now ,
haha , going overseas on 17th and im gna enjoy myself there since is been long i really enjoy.
and im gna miss 2trainings .
rch home and watch th lil nyonya , haha nice :)
and till now , msn-ing and blogshopping ,
till here readers.
& oh ! is been long since i went cc ! haha :)
i wna schl reopen soon , i wna a busy routine ,
i wnaaaaaa STUDY !
dont be surprise to see this but i just go th sudden interest of reading ,
i dnt know why haah ,
bye !

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sicksicksick !

just a short one ,
whole day at home sleep and sleep non-stop.
feeling so tired , headache like fcuk _l_
and my voice totally sucks,
worst than ytd's voice-.-
anw , by right was to go overseas on today ,
but changed till 17th to 19th.
damn it , 3days play shit ?
whatever , whats inside my mind now is ,
" should attend training tomorrow anot "
arrrrrrrrrrrgh , tired & i guess im going to sleep soon ,bye!

Hello readers !

is quite late arnd 2am plus now ,
and im still awake :)!
nothing much about today , is just the usual routine ,
training and bball at 260 awhile.
Jingjie , zhe yang & alam wanted to go buangkok play full court ,
after much pleading , shuqing agreed to go and so does th rest of us .
damn , alam ride shuqing.
freaking zheyang's bike , breakdown at this moment ,
ok just kind of luck , nothing to rant .
so walked all th way with zheyang tgt with that damn bike .
lights off , shoot a few balls
& went ate , thnks for accompany me cs earlier on they had alr eaten :)!
and that damn bike of zheyang's is fixed ,
but i still decided to walk cs im not very used to his bike
& later spoil again blame me -.-
yet he pull my bag and make me run like crazy dogs ,
halfway i decided to stopped .
haha i admit i do have a stuborn character :)

as alam & JJ , send shuqing home ,
halfway i decided to walk home first ,
and this was fcuking fcuk _l_
on th way , somehow i agree with lance sayings , today is a unlucky day ,
ok whatever yeh , i dont give a fcuk damn.
walk home seriously i feel like running th whole basketball court ,
10laps or more using sprint , i've got alot of anger to vent , no joke !
till now , i still got th freaking anger inside ,
feel like going downstairs to run 10 rounds around my house area _l_
ok whatever and my damn comp ,
auto shutdown and auto on for around nearing 1h ,
then finally it decided to let me use & regains its normal condition .
& i did my langarts hols homwork for that damn 1h :)
and recently i've been pleading and pleading my dearest mummy continuosly
for my VAIO CS TOUCH , RED LAPPY !
i've checked th price already and is having promotion now is 2199$ for th best ,
and got free gift ! if not promotion is somehow abit not worthy !
but i've been thinking ,
mummy have bought me new phone ,
am i asking too much for a new computer again ?
cs my comp problem can be solve if re-format.
aww , i cant decide ):
i feel abit guilty if i ask for th lappyyyy , arrrrrgggggh !

HAPPY 14TH BIRTHDAY SHEILA MANOKARAN VALMEO MOYA :) !
mokey old already ,
may all wishes comes true & stay happy !
haha , finally your bday rch , so late !
all th best for everything !

hellooo readers !
fun day today ,
slept till noon , woke up till i received vivian's msg say that meet 2pm ,
went prepared ,
hah so coincidence , saw jasmine at lrt station & she say dont go find sheila first cs wna give her a surprise .
went find vivian & we went choose cakkkee :)
sheila starts to look for vivian,
so asked her go find sheila to cover up sheila's suspicions(anyhow spell -.-)
bought cake and went mac ,
met shuyi and jasmine suddenly say she dnt wna hide alr ,
cos sheila is like somehow angry ,
haha went find her .
ate and went cc .

fun time helping her makeup using those cakes ,
but an uncle pissed us off totally , for small tiny dirt he came nag at us for more than 15mins ,
if im not tolerating i would have quarrel with him no joke ,
so in th end all of us clear th mess up .
but that didnt damp our mood ,
went out rain to played and is fun !
poor jasmine keep kana hit on her head haha !
awhile later , since th rain getting bigger ,
went washroom to have our hair dry and i decided not to stay any longer ,
so went home tgt , before that bought corn soup
and stayed at compass sit down tgt with th rest outside th mrt station,
chit-chat awhile and went home .
saw libin and bryan , last long :)
head home with sheila and jasmine they all ,
took 119 .
damn rain , i almost slip when walking home-.-
i guess im so going to buy a new slipper !
haha ,
immediately went to have shower , a hot one but no diff anw ,
my hse one like spoilspoil like that so not very hot-.-
oh and i notice something ,
is been long since i went home and bathe sooooo early !
haha ! mum bought kway chap for dinner ,
ate and watch show till now ,
just finish th 10pm show and have sometime to use my comp :)

oh i guess im getting more and more missing night life ,
tonning outside and yes ! YES YES YES !
OF COS , I MISS MY MAH JONG :D
im so going enjoy myself outside when im fully recover !
while now , im going to sleep soon or .... no idea haha !
cs still feelings headache and cough aint recover yet ,
and im totally energy-less!
bye readers :)

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just finish bathing , so refresshing :)

slept till 1pm going 2pm ,
didnt really wake up till jasmine sms me , so immediately went brush my teeth and get change.
pass her th balls and headed off to get something to eat ,
totally no energy but is like finally that i get th fresh air outside ,
but feel so weak under th sun , luckily that period of time th sun was not very sunny .
went koufu and ate porridge ,
eat for quite a long time cs no appetite yet force myself to eat ,
after that headed to pharmacy and buy my cough syrup which cost me a bomb !
$5.55 for one cough syrup , damn ! more expensive then me eating 1meal-.-
headed to NTUC and bought freshmilk , sausages and bread ,
hahaha , tonight i'll not go hungry anymoreee :)
headed home after that :)

watched shows and i think is because of th cough syrup ,
feeling drowsy and headache , got no choice ate another panadol
& take a nap.
have my dinner arnd 7pm ,
gosh is so yummyyy:)
haha and i eaten 2bowls of rice ! hahahaah , getting fattttt D:
& went bathe and here im posting yea !
ok gtg readers , off to watch Miss Nyonya(xiao niang re)!
& i heard from vivian say when she tell coach im sick he didnt give a bloodyhell reply -.-
fcuk _l_

everything having problem ,
dont know what th hell is wrong , fcuk _l_
problemsproblemsproblems , hate problems !
first is my body got problem , then now my computer ,
followed by my homwork , free at home so decided to work on my homework,
in th end spent for more than 30mins , i found nth but only 1 langarts homwork &
i guess all th maths homework , rest went MIA -.-
& my comp is super pro lah , i got two virus scanner ,
one scanned 128 virus out another scanner scanned 0 out ,
funny joker & now i open one windows explorer take me more than 5mins ,
how i wish i can use and axe and break this fcuking useless comp into pieces !
!#$%^&*()_ !

and i guess is most likely i cant go training tmr ,
totaly wtf pls , coach say tmr choosing team players ,
sms-ed jasmine and she said most probably is for B div ,
C div not so fast , i heaved a sigh of relieve .
but seriously , i miss th sunny sun outside !
& today shld be a good day for bballing at cc , no event plus is sunnnnyy !
i miss skcc ! i miss mac donald /kfc ! miss dong cheng ! miss bubble tea !
MISS BASKETBALLLLLLLLLLL & of cos someone else.
i've been staying at home fr full 2days & to be exact 48hrs ++ !
omg -.-luckily theres tv programme keep me occupied :)
i feel so weak either my hands or legs . . .simply feel like at any time any moment ,
i can just breakdown and my bone can just disappear into thin airrrr ,lols.
just keep on sleeping and sleeping like a handicapped ,
fcuk & i dont care , by thurs i mustmustmust recover
and friday i diediediedie by hook or by crook also will drag myself up to training !
useless body , since th my body is sick , my brain aint sick man ,
i seriously couldnt stand being trapped at home ,
smelling th stuffy air , i wan sunnlighhttt , i want bball ,
miss th sound of friction given off by shoes at skcc when ppl play match ,
miss ppl calling " nxt team "
and yah is beeeen few days since someone suan-ed me and call me pentimum 1 -.- lols !
& oh daddy went thailand till saturday ,
shld've brought my mum along and i'll be freeeee :)
but sad to say is like impossible cs i know my mum wont let me off so easily -.-

waaah , if now i could have a hot fillet burger , fries and cold greentea infront of me ,
it would be great !
ok just dreaming ..
my fever is ok alr and is like finally ,but my damn cough just dont wna leave me ,
keep on cling on to me and is like getting worse ,
i hate cough , since young i always prefer flu than cough,
cs cough sucks , make my throat freaking itchy _l_
i gueess enough of craps , going to eat another 2panadol and sleep or maybe im going to watch FORENSIC HEROES ,
sad lah i not so lucky like someone got ppl buy disc for her so got to watch on comp ,
& she dont even want lend me see how bad is joyce lim !
hahaha ! joking :) bye readers !

Labels: P.S I MISS SUN

ok im back to posting once again at midnight .
same situation /mood & thinkings .

feel so weak now , just now intended to walk to kitchen and take water for my medicine ,
in th end ,halfway through my leg suddenly went trembling,
seriously hate having this kinda feelings , sucks & my damn fever like playing a fool with me.
Go and come & go and come , like my body is a hotel like that-.-
just now still ok , now suddenly got fever again , just eaten 2 panadol ,
still nothing change , sometimes i really hate those damn advertisment ,
make till like th product very good but in th end , it doesnt work is like so freaking cheater & liar !
damn , im starting to worry alr , if i still dont recover tmr ,
that means im not able to go training ,
after wed th monkey is coming back & her birthday is rching ,
dont know whether by that day i'll recover anot , hais.
i feel so useless , at this minute then sick ):

sometimes i think , when i say im ok , am i really ok ?
to hide th truth , hide th secret i've to act like nobody buisiness ,even i'myself is lost in th actings.
i hate to be strong when im not , yet i hate to be weak ,
esp in front of those whom meant alot to me ,
im so sick of acting , sick of giving up , sick of seeing things change like th speed of lightning
hate liars , hate cheaters , hate myself for being dumb to fell into traps,
i hatehatehate and i sucks & till now im still struggling in th past ,
struggling to make a decision which is obviously out ,
and why must everytime im th one to give up ?
whywhywhy ? why must everytime th thing i desire always seems to so far away from me ?
if heaven is purposely doing this to me ,
i reallyreallyreally wna ask one ques ,
what i do to deserve all this ?
i guess im able to overcome sooner or later , i guess . . .
i've no other choice isnt it ? since when there is a choice for me ?
and th ans is N-O and lastly , HEAVEN IS SO FCUKING UNFAIR_l_

Arrrrrrrrgggggghhhh , suddenly got th urge to scream my lungs out !
feelings soooo frustrated / regretted/problemactic / hatred . . .
just couldnt describe it , just like a cup full of beer + wine-.-
ok i know is bad example ,lols.

ok , at my previous post i mention im sick & having high fever right ?
till now my fever hasnt gone down .
but th weirdest things is , being sick i shld be resting now yea ?
but i just cnt get myself to sleep , flipping here and there ,
flashing through th past ,my brain is overwhelmed lots of these and that and having mixed feelings right now & so , i still couldnt get to sleep -.-
how i wish at this lowlowlowww moment ,
i could have a listening ear , but i wonder who could i find ?
true friends are seriously hard to find , trustable ones are like digging out a gold in a plain mud ,
wondering what to do for tomorrow ,
is been decades since i rot at home , so maybe i shall rot at home this few days for my illness to recover ? lols .
anw i did went for steamboat at my cousin's house ,
practically , i didnt eat much & luckily mummy decided to take taxi :)
btw , sometimes when i think back ,
i seriously hate empty promises & i guess im begining to hate hearing "sorry" .
i hate th foolish me , hate th gullible me , i sucks _l_

think i gna eat another 2 panadol and try to lie back to bed and make myself to sleep ,
oh , how i wish theres someone able to sing lullaby for me,
laughs , kiddinggggg cs hearing songs already could make me sleep.
lastly , due to nv eat much for th steamboat ,
im feeling freaking hungry right now ,so it would be a enjoy if there is a bowl of hothot hor fan
& a chocolate mc flurry for me right now , haha but is like impossible uh-.-'
in fact , i feel happy to be sick cs seriously i've been eating way too much recently
& i weight much heavier than past , so hopefully this damn illness could get rid my fatssss haha.
enough of craps and bye readers :)

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this few days was totally shittt .
worst of all , illness came find me & so im sick.
having cough & fever , my voice changed totally-.-

anw , ytd was somehow ok ?
went meet my relatives & it spend 1h for me to think of what to wear ,
in th end , stil kana their criticsm. whatever i dont really give a fcuked damn.
went town and shop for hrs , seriously this is worst than training ,
imagine someone who only slept 5hs plus and was somehow sick has to walk arnd town continuosly for hrs
& shop this and that , see them trying out clothes all this .
seriously OG , ROBINSON all this sucks man , the clothes they sell is totally shitshitshit !
not any single clothes caught my eyes-.-
dinner was a big relieve , nice and delicious .
and then trained home with mummy , saw dearie :)

afterawhile , received msg asking wna go mac ,
since nothing to do , went find them & that stupid zheyang keep on suan me !
and thnks freda for letting us to wait for 2 hs , to be specific for me is arnd 1h plus but for them is more than 2hs , i think ? not sure .
then alam ride us to punggol beach and is super cram in th car -.-
rched there and th wind is super big plus there is dogs arnd ,
if you say those dogs is like smallsmall one im not afraid ,
worst , their dogs there is big and scary .
stayed there and look at th view , for dont know how long .
then we decided to went back to mac ,
bloodyhell something was leaked out , just hope they can keep this secret.
sit there chatting and went off arnd 4am.
sent freda home and told alam to take me go dou feng ,
is totally one word to describe , SHIOK !
then they sent me home at arnd 4.30am ,
hahah , thnks :)

however , when i came home , starts to have fever
think was due to my light coughing and i didnt really rest well ,
went slept all th way till now 5pm .
and i promised my relatives today going eat stemboat ,
first , im not a god ah ? if im a god i would have know everything and if so ,
i think in th begining i wont have go cvss , wont have score 222 for psle & wont have lik-ed him ,
to cause myself , today , to have so many regrets.
so yah, like i know i will sick today -.- if i know i wont have promise you guys right ?
and now my fcuking parents expect me to dont care my illness
& go all th way to sembawang , my cousin house to eat steamboat ,
if you say you call taxi fetch me go , ok reasonable ,
but now at this time 5pm going 6pm is when ppl finish working ,
lrt and mrt packed ,you expect me this bing ren to cram with ppl ?
if im not sick i cfm will , but now im sick , feeling hot and cold ,
i dont know why i've got such unreasonable ppl and for fcuk reasons ,
being supertitious they say is i myself , went out late at night and kana those " things "
like hell , come on , if so why the rest nv fall sick ?
and for your fcuking information , IM ALREADY SICK BEFORE THAT ,
get it ?!
having this type of parents ,
leading this kind of fcuk life with fcuking problems
i would rather SICK TIL DEATHE THAN GOING SEE A DOCTOR ,
fcuk off _l_
and hey come on ,
STOP USING SENDING ME BACK TO M'SIA
as a threaten to me ,
IM NOT SOMEONE WHOM YOU CAN THREATEN AND BE A PUPPETS FOR YOU ,
if even this you dont even know , then i shall tell you betta get away from me
& you aint fit to be my parents , or to be exact ,
im sorry im not that fortunate enough to have you this kind of parents ,
happy ?!
how i wish you can see this post and stop suspecting me doing what ytd night -.-

Tears rolling down, sometimes i wonder ,
whats th use of love , th definition of it ?
either one sided love or relationship, whats th point of it ?
some says , love is blind and it makes you feel happiness ,
some says , love is hurtful and only brings tears . . .
love goes arnd th world , knowing that it could cause hurts ,
silly people still dropping into this damn trap wishfully thinking that ,
waiting will worth everything and caused themselves into a mind of mess ,
struggling hard to get an ans , feeling moody all day long
& i guess im not any better , in fact one of these.
i remember i once heard people saying ,
there will always be a pair , a pair of opposite sex which suits each other
& they said , two person in love , no matter how they are far apart
till th very end , they will meet eventually ,
and this is what makes me wonder , will they really meet ?
heaven likes to pull ppl's leg and get them fooled isnt it ?
& yea im totally so-fooled this time . . . ***

not really a good day for me ,
training was a totally shit , im like a fcuking dumb and blur one ,
doing th wrong things and get myself scolding.
went 260 play-ed bball , slacked , ate and homed.
different ppl have different parents of character ,
and i dont know for what freaking reasons i deserve this type of parents & uncles.
it was said to visit my relatives tmr so practically shld be enjoying right ?
but for fcuk reasons , i seriously dont knw what to wear ,
i get along well with them previously when im young ,
but i dont knw why ,im getting more&more cant get along with them ,
everytime when i meet them , they will always be criticising th way i wear ,
maybe i change or they aint up to th fashion yet , this world is just so realistic,
things goes wrong track and people just dont seem to be th same.
sometimes , when somebody criticise ppl , do he/she ever think through of how th person's feeling ? hey like come on , you dont own this world , so just keep th comments to yourself and shut your fcuking mouth up for god sake-.-
&living with parents for so many yrs , quarrels for upteen times ,
till today , now this very moment , they still dont seem to understand their own child's character(myself) & all i can say , they're just so great man .
& if not that i've no other places to live ,
i would not even step into this fcuking shit house ,
do you think i really like to live here ? it doesnt belong to me at all man ,i simply hatehatehate you guys , either my uncles or aunties , sucks dicks!
& get this clear , i dont have to come home early just specially to finish bathing so that you guys can bathe after that , I CAN BATHE LATER ,
is just so fcuking lame , whats th point of who bathe first ?!
i can just bathe a th kitchen toilet please , for goodness sake !-.-
i've nv mention that " hey you must let me bathe first " not a single word i ever had,
so you can just fcuking leave me alone and bathe anytime you want even though im NOT at home ,
dont get me pissed off by calling me upteen times to be early just for BATHING ,
and im not a 3yrs old toddler who must report what time finish this and that ,
ate or not eaten alr , im not a TODDLER NEITHER A KIDDO ANYMORE ,
GET THIS CLEAR ,
and is just a fcukingfucked and pissed off day for me , bye.

sorry for so many fcuk and fcuking, you can dont read it ,
or choose to leave this blog anytime , anyminute.

Labels: just fcuk off and what a fool-ed.

hellooohellooo!

is arnd 3am plus , waited for my papa for 2hs just for my food ,
haha but worth waiting cos he bought my favourite food !
prawn noodles and carrot cake , but of cs i didnt finish all ,
i left some carrot cake fr him, goodgood me :)
& guess what ? he say if i continue to eat supper he bought ,
i'll be same size as him soon , haha ! lmaos !
i dont think so actually cos when im young he always buy supper for me also ,
im still so skinny right ?! haha so no worries , no worries :)!
anw i'll be so hungry was cs just now nv eat dinner lah -.- lols ,
i love to eat , it helps to keep me feel better when im down &
makes me feel full hahah i hate hungry esp th growling sound lols ,
enough of crapping .

well , didnt went training today cos ytd watch show till 5plus go 6.
somehow i feel sense of guilt overwhelming ,
i know i shldn't sleep so late esp th nxt day got training , but is near th ending ,
so i decided to finished it . hehe, promise not to skip training nxt time unless there is VR :)
veryveryverryy difficulty drag myself wake up at 12.25pm
went online and feel tired , so after making up my decision ,
chatted with sweetheart awhile and went straight to my bed all th way till 5pm !
can you believe it ?! hahaha , 2pm sleep till 5pm -.-
but well during schl days i always slept late and woke up early ,
now hols , let me enjoy sleep long hrs no wrong yea ? feels so great man ! haha !
after that , went bathe .
while waiting my hair dry , my auntie only finish cooking th soup , so drink lotus soup
& im so dumb la i got hair dryer i nv use-.-
anw dry alr then head to cc , not much ppl
& me , xinyi , pei qi , huiyee , freda played match ,
but due to huiyee th entertainer , we decided not to play cs we just cnt stop laughing ! haah !
after awhile , louis came and we played 3 vs 2 ,
me , jingjie and bryan vs prisc and louis
ohyah , yeo boonhow that asshole came( i'll die if he see this !)
but sad la nv play match with him at all cs when we wna start , th person say need use court for wushu-.-

went koufu to eat and then i nv play le stay there play psp , hehe .
lights off and walked home with freda & yongthye .
& some ppl is so dumb , after walking th same road for so long
& he today then notice , th usual road he took is longer than th road he took today ,
dumb isnt it ?! hahaah !
okok , bye readers :)

Labels: Struggling to make a decision

helloooo readers ! :)

officially finish another show which is hei tang qun xia zuan !
hahah , yeahyeah !
so now i cn focus on PI LI MIT !
anw , today slept till noon & off to meet th rest at 2plus ,
played a few match with cliques & then arnd evening when xuehan came ,
we played match with gavin & his friends , dont knw what name
raining like hell man and th lightning scared me out totally man cs i was facing th court !
luckily th thunder not very loud orelse i will really scream like crazy ,
rmb th worst one is that time cc only got jingjie , shuqing ,huiyee me and a few more ,
all was shooting and i suddenly squat down cs of th thunder , luckily all is friends orelse damnnn bo bin lah !

when th rain stop we went out played match with yongthye they all ,
won and ownself play team with xuehan , zhanglang , huiyee , me ,shuqing ,freda & prisc.
funfunfunnn ;D
then awhile later arnd 9plus changed all this and off we went to eat a mac.
went separate ways with zhanglang ,xuehan and mansi.
but huiyee that sotong , handphone left kana ppl take also dont know hahah ,
so halfway went back took and walk home.
& watch show till now .

bye readers !

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helllllllllloooooo readers !

now is around 3am going 4am soon ,
hahah this few weeks in order to catch shows i sacrifice my beauty sleep !
lols ! anw just finish watching MISS NO GOOD ,
aww , so fast end alr ):
but is showing in s'pore sooonsoooooon ! so i'll catch it once again ,
if i were the editor or writer or whatever lah ,
i'll make it longer and th ending more sweet, somehow find that something is missing in this show , but dont know what -.-
so far most satisfied show for me is love at corner & ge dou tian wang
other than that i think shld be Pi Li MIT , rest still okok haha ,
but my hei tang qun xia zuan still haven finish -.-
so many shows to catch , but today dont feel like watching till morning cs i wna go dreamland earlier , this few days nv sleep well ,make my body so heaty & now th consequences is having pimple at my cheek there-.-

alot of you will be surprise isnt it ?
i remember last time seeing ppl have pimple i was wondering why i dont have -.-
then now have alr i feel that is so frigging irritating lah !
hahah , well nothing much for today actually ,
morning sweetheart didnt manage to went for her training &
so we met later arnd 1pm plus & off we head to hougang .
went sportslink tgt and had a hard time deciding what to buy ,
if we went off later i think th whole sportslink will be burnt down by sweetheart ,
cos she was fuming like hell due to me being too fickle minded and th design i like she dislike hahah ! funfun :)

headed to eat at kopitiam and there was this lil child think is mostly shld be p4 orelse p5
i was standing at th stall wondering why nobody serve and he suddenly pop out
" what you want ?" i was damn lag lah and stand there then he say ,
" you can order from me " then i regain my composure and tell him th food i want ,
bloodyass he so young omg-.-
i think he is th son of th stall-er ? not sure haha but in th end he order wrong
& i earn extra meat ! hahah ,my tactic , lols ! jokingggg:D
headed home and not long after ,
went cc , played a few team , raining cats and dogs,
but me freda and shuqing still went out to play and make ourself wet lols.
ate and went 260 played cards game and shoot ball ,
walked home , bathe and blablabla , here i'm ;]

ohyah , mum had alr book th ticket ,
will be going malaysia on 14 december , cos is just nice fit my grandma dont knw what date lols ,
so yeah will buy something back esp FOOOD ! hahah ,
but i think will be missing 1 or 2 training ?
aww , & heard from sotong , lance is back omgggggggg;o
ok bye readers :)

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